Sometimes I wonder y I am still thinking abt this person when he has shown thru his actions dat I don’t matter… how cud I get involved in such a situation… I thought I was smarter than dis…but now I am again stuck in the same rut I told I wudnt get into… I literally begged for this person’s attention… feel so shitty abt myself…and d low I hv fallen to… not understanding how to just stop… it’s like a voice is screaming inside me to stop…just stop thinking abt this person …I wish I cud just switch off my emotions… I wish I cud avoid him like he’s avoiding me. I wish i had some self respect.