Sometimes I wish my mom would just die. I will be in trouble if she dies, but sometimes I feel it's impossible for me to stay alive and stay happy if she is around. Yeah I will be heartbroken if she dies, but at least I will get some peace. I just want peace tbh. She has been driving me mad. I can't keep myself sane these days. I just want her to not return from work sometimes. I hate her so much. I hate her a lot.

3am Thoughts

Do boys cheat in a relationship if we are not physically involved in a 4 yrs of relationship? 

Boyfriend

Feeling good because of meditation. you too should try. Best link i have found on YouTube
https://youtu.be/DWAK8Dcowl4
Copy paste this link and enjoy guy's 

ptanae kyu
par me jb padh krti hu na mei thodi bhavuk ho jati hu 
isliye bhi nae k probems hai life me 

Life

I'm emotionally numb.... bad things keep happening, but I just shrug my shoulders. I feel nothing, I just react with a simple "whatever" dialect and move on. At this point, I have just accepted what keeps happening. I'm in the military and feel alone even when I'm surrounded by hundreds of people a day. It's so challenging... being thousands of miles from home, not seeing my family members faces each and every day and staying on top of all of the roles my job expects of me. I question everyday whether I have made the correct choice. I'm facing financial issues because of my parents who are addicted to gambling, I've been phased down three times in my technical training, I have gained a ton of weight, don't have the motivation to exercise, I received a letter of reprimand from my leadership (pretty bad) and I can't facetime my sister because it annoys her new boyfriend. All these negatives against me and I don't feel a thing- I want to cry but the tears won't flow. What has happened to me...

Career

Feeling too sleepy in working time. Not in active mood to work. 

Exhausted

Any boy up for conversation?
If yes connect me.


Hey everyone, how are you?
Hoping that you all are good and doing amazing in your life.
I actually wanted to share something with you. Umm you see, it's so good and beautiful that we can share our feelings, thoughts, emotions, the deepest desires and the deepest secrets. About a year ago, I was studying psychology, there I learnt about an amazing fact that "Human being is a social animal". Without society, without people, we can't even exist. I learnt about the need of family, society, friendship, love and care. Why it's so important to have someone to love you, whom you can share your feelings. I learnt how important is it to share what you feel. It's actually like Psychological homeostasis, the perfect balance. But you know, there's a problem, actually so many problems, Nowadays, people are so judgemental. Within 3-4 seconds, they're ready with their perspective of the person, irrespective of his reality. And in the world of judgemental people, it's seems almost impossible to find the unconditional positive regard. 
But soon I did some brainstorming, and felt that why would I go for a prejudice society, or a judgemental person to share my feelings, my deepest secrets and longings, if I could easily share here with mere words. May be I couldn't receive the affection, which i could possibly get from one of my friends, but atleast I'll not be dependent on anyone. I just wanted to say Thank you to everyone who's reading it. Thank you for being the one who listen to me. I'm so grateful that some people listen to me. Thank you dear for reading this, for listening me.

I wanna scream out loud I DONT WANT TO LIVE. ITS FRUSTRATING SEEING EVERYDAY ME AS ALIVE. When I didn't get placed for more than a year I thought coz of that I am feeling I don't belong here. But that was not the case, I got a job at a good mnc, still I don't feel I belong here. Here on the earth. I don't want to live.

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