Sometimes I say 'Bye' when I'm hurt and frustrated, but it doesn't mean I want you to leave me alone. It means I need you to see through my pain and anger, and show me that you care. I need you to hug me, comfort me, and tell me that everything will be okay.

I need you to love me more than ever, and never let me go.

Say what u mean then. No means no. Bye means bye. Stay means stay. 

3am Thoughts

how long can I stand to act like a strong person? :(

Overthinking

The time when you realize that you don't love them as you used to...there's a heavy feeling in your chest while you're thinking about it...you knew that you gonna love them even tho they didn't care about you...you knew your love would last and you'd care for them even though they don't give shi..but you weren't aware of the fact that sometimes this heart gets tired and let everyone go who doesn't wants to be there...so you just stop caring and loving them...you distance yourself from them...from everyone

I just wanna end this life. It hurts too much

Suicidal Ideation

Hii everyone 😍

Adulting

1 year and I will be a doctor ..mbbs graduate maybe..I have been having anxiety and sleep problems...maybe it is with me that I am overthinking everything ...I don't want to MD in india because of 64.5% reservation system ..I want to go away from here ..most probably to London..a place where I will be mentally more productive is what I think..a place where I would not have to prove ny worth again and again and again.. I've told my parents and they are not Fully upto this ...I hope I convince them till the end of my internship ...and then I move to a place where I can grow , live and progress..and problem is that I have been really overthinking about this ..what if my parents don't agree till the end ..what if I stay all my life here surrounded by many many toxic people ..what if I don't get to fulfill my dreams ..what if I don't get to do things I want ...will I ever be able to cope up if I don't get to leave this place ..and for now I am trying but not able to study effectively ...anxiety and sleep problems basically

Anxiety

ur mood rn

I haven't been able to sleep for more than 3 hours for the past week. I keep ruminating. I haven't done anything productive (atleast in my eyes I'm sure everyone in my life thinks the same, only if they knew anything about where I'm at, what's happening to me) and don't feel like doing anything.
I keep going in and out of states of mind and or moods. The lack of predictability and or control or stability idk what to call it, is making me smaller and I'm going in more and more as in, I'm so much hidden inside this dark place within me, I'm scared I'll never be myself again. 

I don't know why am I feeling all this. But it feels like a personal loss to me. I mean somebody could have saved him right. I feel so helpless and I don't know it's just i am not able to accept this. We have so many people around us still people take such drastic steps.. this feels like you're in a room with so many people and you're shouting on top of your voice but nobody is listening to you and you feel so alone in a room full of people. This shows how much this humanity has deteriorated. 

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