Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I’m also thinking about that but I’m having trouble expressing my feelings to people ://

Who said people you share it anonymously like you’re sharing now no one is going to judge you or give you lectures on your mistakes atleast I won’t if you want to talk you can talk to me let’s start with regrets and Guilt?

I really appreciate it. Thank you. Okay, I’ll start. I had a misunderstanding with my friend we’ve talked about it a couple of times already, but I still think that there are times she betrays me, you know? bc we (or at least now she,) has a friend group and I think everyone knows in our batch that they backstab each other and I don’t wanna get betrayed again. We tried to sort things out. We’ve talked through social media, but in person, we’re just like strangers. So, I told my other friends I’ll stop hanging with their friend group bc I don’t want the toxicity anymore in my life and I kept telling myself that there are some ppl who come into your life who’ll teach you a lesson and that’s what I believed. One time, she messaged me that she’s tired of the act already so she apologized again and said that we should be friends again. But I refused and said that I don’t think I can be friends with her again, but we could stay as acquaintances. And now, as I’ve thought, we’ve been friends for 8 years(going 9yrs this year) and the friendship and memories will go to waste. I’ve always believed and told myself that she hurt me, but then I thought, I know she’s also hurt because of me. Because I was badly hurt, I started to hate her. And now, as I keep on thinking, I think I was being selfish. And I wanted to talk to her and apologize, and be friends with her again. What do you think?

You’re not being selfish I think you did what anyone would do while they are hurt or angry with person they love and care, I can understand it’s not easy to trust someone once you’ve been deceived but you need to let it go may be she is changed may be she is not but you becoming a big heart person forgiving her won’t cause any damage to your beautiful soul and never fear asking for apologies for your actions they are who they are but you don’t have to become any evil to become who you’re not, we sometimes have 10 years of friendship and they break sometimes 2 days of friendship which last forever but it shouldn’t stop us on beleiving in friendship or love, we fall we stand and we start again that’s life sweetheart we won’t learn anything if we doesn’t fall just pick yourself up every time without waiting for someone to do that for you the day you become self strong people will loose the power to hurt you… Toxic is harmful in anyway so live for yourself, people who loves you and you love but don’t chase them if they want to stay appreciate their staying and if they choose to go appreciate it as well…

I’m so torn. There were ppl who told me not to be friends with her again. And there was some who told me we should. The biggest problem here is that her friends are also my friends. So if I let go of her, it’s like I’m giving up on everyone.

Haha sure!

thanks for the advice!