Sometimes i feel lonely because of Emptyness Anyone have some feelings or Need a Good Converstion ping me

Love

The universe has put me through so much shit, that I can't even tell if it wants me alive or dead anymore. I have never been able to actually say, 
"Thank god that happened back then. I'm much happier now." Nope, never 

Conflict

EVARA❤️

I am studying and living in hostel. I am living in hostel for past 3 years.
I thought college life would be great, will have good friends, good memories etc.
Then I failed my first year twice and I cleared my first year in 3rd attempt with good marks and i am now in 2nd year.
My life is so changed that i really feel alone a lot and depress. My friends i made in the beginning of the college had just become name sake. I tried to become friends with my new  batchmates but it doesn't working a lot. My old roommate whom i thought was good friend was so bad that i regret why i recognize her so late. She and mine mistake ruined my past two year. I stay whole day in my room using phone, listening music etc and at the end i get to know i have no one to talk , to spend time to hangout.
I used many social ways to make friends like tinder, multiplayer games etc. but nothing seems to be working. I don't know what should i do i cant be engaged whole day in phone or books. 
Just help me out.. how to get ride of this overthinking, depression, loneliness and all negative stuffs.

Overthinking

Everybody has moral issues smh

3am Thoughts

Please can someone do something so that i can tell that person i loved him so much .... can anyone help me with this .... its getting over my head a lot 
.... 
I keep thinking about the ways this misshapen could be avoided..... 

Let's start a random discussion.
Do you guys think God exists? And if they do then do they affect our life in any way or just watch us leading our life? 

Why is it so that if you found the love you you will get so many troubles along the way.

The guy I am in love with has so many dependencies on him since he doesn’t have a father so he have to take care of his mother and sister and in this case if i marry him i have to leave behind my job and do whatever is possible from home like technical writing or so.
Moreover i am never being in the environment where i have to do all the household work as i have always being living far from family and had maid for everywork.

I have this fear that life ends after marriage and seeing this scenario my fear is turning into a reality, not getting what to do.
I really love this man and he loves equally too but there is some situations he is tied to that he cannot change so i have to make these adjustments.
Unable to take the decision. Please help.

Relationships

I dont know from where to start but okay let me just start with whatever i am feeling right now i have major anxiety 
Right now my heart is pounding for no reason just becuati took a little nap and part of head and body is pounding too(i am sorry for the poor English) i am havin this fear which is not explainable sure i can supress this feeling by having my anxiety pill but since i am already sleep deprived and i have to go to work tomorrow so i dont want to take pill untill really needed 
I am somehow trying to distract myself
My head is aching and for no reason i am feeling this choking in my throat
I know its a feeling and i will be fine but 
I want to feel good
Its like my body js shaking 
There is so much going that i dont even know how to explain 
Usually i call my friends and loved ones when i feel this way but i have noticed due to talking too much over call my ear feels heavy after that and plus i no more have energy to talk
Since i am a working person and there i have to talk all the time 
I have to keep going despite how am i feelin 
I hope i will be fine one day


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