Sometimes I feel like life doesnтАЩt have meaning and sometimes I feel like itтАЩs purpose is to destroy me. My parents donтАЩt support me and keep forcing their expectations. I donтАЩt feel like studying and I have so much incomplete work. My friends and my boyfriend only text me back when I text them. IтАЩve been heartbroken before and it left a permanent mark. IтАЩve had suicidal thoughts before and IтАЩm having them again. IтАЩve hurt myself in the past too. I cry every night under a blanket and I donтАЩt know what to do. I told my friends earlier about my suicidal thoughts before and they treated it like a joke so I havenтАЩt told them this time. One of my best friend keeps creating dramas and IтАЩm too tired to deal with it anymore. I just feel like dying.