Sometimes i feel like i'm not solid. I'm hollow, there's nothing behind my eyes. I'm a negative of a person. All i want is blackness. Blackness and silence.

Life

I feel scare that my long distance bf doesn’t feel the same no matter how many times he says he loves me. The way he doesn’t talk to me as much makes me feel unworthy. I understand he has a life too but when we’re alone in call he doesn’t talk and I talk but he gives me dry answers. I love him so much that it even hurts telling him how I feel because I’m scare hell ended. I feel so jealous of his brothers girlfriend around him because she makes him smile more then I have since he left. I’m scare that things might not work out and I’m scare to acept it  or come to that point.

3am Thoughts

I AM HURT..!😢😢😢
I was talking to a guy on Instagram
We talked for like hours daily ,Late night talks also sometimes till like 4 AM
We seriously were talking till late night...he confessed his feelings..i felt it too..it was going amazingg..he told he loved me
But waking up today i tried to msg him i realized he had blocked me from both of my Instagram accounts..
I tried to reach him from my frind's acc..he blocked it too..i am just clueless..what to do now? Was it my fault anywhere..? I don't even have his number or any other form of contact..
Also yesterday he wanted to have "those kinda talks" if you know what i mean,  i.e adult talks we can say..and i denied him..i didn't deny directly, but just told him to stop as i wasn't comfortable..it was the first time he was talking like that.i felt weird..and now he has blocked me..idk what to do..i cried idk why..i am hurt..a lott..was it my fault anywhere?
I just feel he kinda played with my emotions

Long Distance Relationship

Question to boys....what do you think we girls don't understand about you? Do tell if any....

Confusion

Hey guys 
What's up? 
How's everything going on ?

Intro

Weird thing. Whenever I’m w my childhood bestie she gives her other friends more attention and less towards me. I’m not friends w her other friends cause they’re all from her school or her college and I don’t know any of them well and they know each other cause same college & school I try my best to interact w them and instead of asking me anything about me they say things like “why’re you alone” or “why don’t you speak much”. Idk what kinda weird situation is this 😂

Boredddd!!!

Dreams

LONG STORY ABOUT MY ABUSIVE FATHER AND ME,
I don't know how to start this story as my memory is a little foggy as it has been a few years . I was average in studies use to get 80% till 7th class and in 8th with pubg and loneliness got the worst out of me didn't have much friends and the only peer living in my building was a pervert so didn't want to be friends :) . After 8th class don't know what happened to me but i stopped going to school . I used to fight my mother so much whatever happens i am not going school the whole year had been like that and i used to get so aggressive and literally used to scream so loud that it used to panick my mom . And i have this foggy memory of my dad ,he is NRI (Non resident Indian) he is a person who can get so angry in a second if someone doesn't listens to him or corrects him . I really don't have much memory of that day but my dad fas trying to push mom or fight mom and say "get out of the house" and i love my mother so i had screamed and pushed my dad he was kinda shocked as he loves me like i am a 5 year old boy i am still 18 and he loves me like i am still 5 year old and later on when i pushed and screamed and defended my mother my grandpa just came and slapped me and i was crying after that and just went to sleep after crying . The best thing was that he only used to visit once in a year for 1 ½ month . My whole body mind and face is like my father , it's been traumatic for me since childhood . I was once a victim of domestic violence and later on i was the one doing it . It's been few years after that and since covid i have become normal but it still haunts me and i feel better after writing all this :) . If you read my story till here i want to tell you that you have patience and you are a beautiful person and i love you :) .

Anger Issues

When is the right time you gonna tell someone you like him/her

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts