Sometimes i feel bad and sad and lonly about missing many things that a common person of my age has.

Sometimes i question to myself, was this worth it ??

Sometimes i wish to live a normal life

Sometimes i feel to share things and with people (i dont have any)

Deep Down there is a dark corner, and i know that.

But this Dreams & Ambitions man ... 
They wont let me sleep. 
They wont leave me alone
They wont let be settle for things which everybody has
They wont let me be happy.
They wont let me live without a purpose

Cauz the oridinary is cliche.



Yes i do, i really do ...

But i have come a long far that now it doesn't matter 

Motivation

I feel so lonely right now, the person i loved trusted jisko hmesha priority rkha sbse phle rkha usse to meri care tk nhi hai he doesn't i cry ya kuch bhi ho , i feel so stupid right now , why i am so unlucky 

3am Thoughts

Just bored..... 
Well anyone here who can have a conversation???????????😩

Mental Illness

I'm crying bcz of her .. waiting for her when she will talk to me.. I need to spend time with her but she's already busy.. I can't interrupt her but deep down it's killing me being like this 😭😭HELP!!

I never worked in my life because my bff was paying for everything. Actually I worked only a little and I made 3000$ few years ago and thats it. Now my bff works as an dispatcher and he can make 4000$ a month. Because we live in Usa this is not a lot of money . I aksed him if he can help me and teach me how to do this job and he asked how much money you want and I told him 4000$ and he said what? You made 3000$ in your whole life and now you want 4000$? I dont see whats the problem? Its not gonna be him the person that will pay me , I asked him only to teach me. Is it normal that he said that I made only 3000$ in my whole life and like now I want 4000$? With such an attitude… I felt understimated

Boyfriend

This thing is getting me really stressed 
Like in a relationship a person’s way of talking has changed from earlier times. Whenever i try to confront the answer is i am stressed with my life and there is nothing like i am cheating on you. We talk everyday but not like earlier. He cares about me asks about everything i do and do tell all the updates about his life. But the thing is he didn’t express the feelings everytime like he use to do. 
The point is should i trust him and go with the flow or should i took step back from this relation?

Adulting

jamesssssssss


Friends

I am almost 19 and in a phase of my life, where my parents have given up on me, i don't have any goals or ambitions. My grades have gone down significantly. All i am hoping is to score atleast 85+ in my board exams which seems impossible.  My best friend and my boyfriend of almost 5 years cheated on me brutally. I cannot face anybody right now. I cannot focus. I have my entrance exams in a couple of days. My board exam are going on. And with all this emotional trauma and pressure at once. I am distracted demotivated, all i wanna do is end my life now. I cannot face my relatives or my family. I am done.

I met a guy on a dating app and we connected instantly. He seemed a nice guy and seemed interesting. I can say that he is not a fuckboy because I insisted him to get in bed on our first date but he was the one who said that it could wait and didn’t. He said he wanted me around and wants me to meet his friends if it’s not a problem for me (He knows that I am introvert kind and I get nervous around new people). But ever since then, we have never met again (also the lockdown), he doesn’t text me often (like he used to wish me good morning, although he keeps me sending cute couple memes that have reduced nowadays), doesn’t reply or replies late. I told him that I feel that there is a lot of miscommunication between us but he said that he never felt so. I just want to know that what is it with him, is he bored of me? does he need space? Or is he like this only? If he is bored and doesn’t want to take it any further, why does he behave like everything is the same when I call him. If he needs space then how long, cus this is killing me. And if he is actually like this, like someone who doesn’t talk at all, I can’t be with someone like that, it makes me feel insecure and I need help to get him out of my head. I feel like he is not a fuckboy but he is a very charming and smooth talker. I stalked his social media and I could see some women (who can also be his friends who are just playing along) flirting with him in his comment section and him flirting back. I also saw his guy friends teasing him that he gets along with women smoothly and is a stud. I know it’s wrong to judge a person like that, but I just can’t help thinking that for him I might be just another girl whose attention he caught.

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