Somethings missing in my life idk what tf it is, I wanna know what is it, any suggestions?

Try meditation, sometimes we can find our answers through that. 

Life

i always pretend that im okay even im not 😔

Depression

**Quarantine 101**

*Challenge 1*

What would you choose?

1. 💪 or 😴?
2. 🍎 or 🍕?
3. 🥗 or 🥘?
4. 🍩 or 🍉?
5. 🏃‍♀️ or 🚗?
6. 🐶 or 😺?
7. 🚂 or ✈️?
8. 🌊 or 🏔?
9.  ⛈ or ☀️?
10. ☃️ or 🌈?

Comment below and tell us!

Life is confusing enough already, let's see if this adds to the confusion or provides some much-needed clarity!

COVID-19

Feeling nervouss!! 
It's my first time tutoring kids in their houses. I'm not a strict person at all..nor my voice is high but I'm good with kids.. Any tips for how to make them talk , open up ?? 


Confusion

You can't repeatedly disappoint someone and expect their energy to still crave for YOU.

3am Thoughts

I suddenly got emotional while singing 'Simpleng Tao' in the middle of troubleshooting my work and remembered my ex - Denvert. It's what he sings to me when we're still together and I realised how bad I was to be want things out of ordinary or normal or simple. Yes, there's no wrong with wanting those but wanting those and not seeing him achieving those things with you are far more complicated and it thinking of it hurts. Until now I'm still sorry. I hope the universe tells him how sorry I am for breaking up with him and breaking him. It's one of the moments where you'll just get quiet and hold your face into your palm and think how things went south. Going back to the memories, those happy memories really makes you sad because the feeling will never be the same again. 

Today I’m feeling lots of emotions all together. I feel like stuck on a wheel like a hedgehog.

Frustration

I am so done with my life. I have no one to talk too, I am just on my phone waiting for someone to text me or call me, I just surf on Instagram Facebook and Twitter and now I am tired of that, I am sad the whole day, can’t even go out for a drive alone, bored of watching Netflix, My only source of entertainment is going through memes on Instagram Facebook and now I am so bored that I can see the repeated ones, I don’t know what to do I am so done. I sometimes question myself that why do I even exist? 
I am just sad because I don’t have anyone to talk too, even I want friends, what kind of sin I have done!

Other

It will be little long , i will appreciate it even if you just read it and will be delighted to have your suggestion.

So it starts like this, 
I had a crush on a girl in my school days, when we used to play outside she would never hold anyone's hand except mine. i used to think that she likes me so i gradually developed a strong love for her and then i went to college and in my first year i summoned everything and said to her that i love her. She rejected me by saying "you are a good man.  you are a husband material but not a bf material" . I kinda felt hurt but at the same time i felt good that atleast she didn't lie about her feelings and convinced myself that maybe i have perceived her friendship in a wrong way.
Then in the final year another  girl proposed me , first i denied just to see if she really mean it.
I accepted her proposal after a month after seeing that she really want me. We had a beautiful relationship of 1.5 year and never really had a fight between us. She even used to say that " tum daadte kyu nhi ho jab me kuch galat krti hu". I don't know but kabhi uspe gussa nhi aaya.
Then suddenly everything changed, she made new friends and after few months she left me by saying " you are boring" probably because i an introvert and don't really socialize much. 
And that was turning point as i really loved her and my breakup was followed by covid so i had to deal with that all alone. It took me 3 years to get out of it completely .
Today another girl said " i love you" , though i am not really sure if she really mean it as she said it after saying "I like talking to you" and to be honest i have no intension of going into relationship ever again and i don't even like her that way.  i question everyone who tries to be nice with me everytime. Maybe i have become paranoid but somewhere i don't want to hurt her so what should I do? Should I stop talking to her or should I let things go?
People do like me initially but don't really want me because of my monotonous and boring life which i never really consider boring, instead i like it.


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