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toxic family anyone?

3am Thoughts

I don't get it ..
When I do somthing that I should do and eveyone want me to do I do it but then again they find somthing withen that act that make me stop doing it.
It seem to them that me speaking in fam meeting is bad and awful. They say I say unnecessary things.. and afte I say them they just say that I shouldn't speak about these things. Then tell me. How am I suppost to speak to strangers when my own family find my speach is annoying and my opinions are wrong. So then I shouldn't speak I assume. 

Anxiety

When u have the support of ur family in Hard Times it gets easier n vice versa...

Family

My family
sometimes i feel like ending my life(and tried attempting suicide for like 4 time) thats too much to handle for a teenager I literally have seen my mom dad fighting physically too its very disturbing for me my family does not even care about me the only thing that matter for them is fights and fights it is affecting my studies and mental health too i wish i was a normal kid with happy parents 

Try to help them and they'll start fighting with you showing how distressed they are and how they have no control over their emotions. 
Seriously , people who take things for granted should be left alone in a house with no entertainment system. 

Autism

Everyone knows that one should stay away from negative people or vibes. But what if u can't stay away from them can't even think of make a distance from them bcoz u love them so much and they r ur family but they r so negative abt everything that ur positive vibes are diminishing slowly and u r start becoming one of them but u don't want to make a distance bcoz u love them. 
How to deal with it. 

I hate it how they all looking at me like that. I hate it how they all make me feel like I am an outcast. I hate it how they always blame me whenever something wrong goes on their way. I hate it how they always favored the other one without knowing what is the reason why am I angry at them. I hate it how they are all saying to me that I always push myself away from them but the truth is they are the one pushing me away whenver I want to talk to them or hang out them. I hate it how they all gave me their fucking fake smiles. I hate all of them. Fuck them for making my mother mentally sick. Fuck them for making them do this to me. Fucking family! I hate you! Fuck it. I don't know what I should fucking do to my life. I have friends but they have so many problems that I can't even let my problems out. I just... don't know what I should do. Should I smug it all and pretend like it is nothing. They are my family why are they all doing this to me? Am I that sinful to fucking deserve this?

My family is making fun of other religion and I hate it so much I don't know what can I say to them, They think all the other religions expect what they are from is wrong and they consider it as stupid and like a non sense .

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