Something that popped up in my head today!! Idk how many are gonna agree to this but “ Failing in private is so much better than failing in a public “ . Maybe because we don’t have to answer anyone or feel judged. It gives us the space to feel bad and recover. Plus focus on working on maybe harder or better.. But failing in a public setting always or mostly takes your attention from failing that specific to feeling bad about what others are gonna think of it.

Ps: But both can happen to anyone and everyone. Trust yourself that you are gonna get there.. the whole note was just a comparison.. but again we can’t stop ourselves from getting into either of it cuz .. its gonna happen and we r gonna face it!! 

katie

3am Thoughts

On a scale of 1-10, how is your mental health currently?

In sorrow seek happiness ☺️😁

👽"Kuchh hai jo mila nahi vo kyaa hai pataa nahi"

Hope

I feel like I am stuck in a toxic relationship from which I have not been able to get out. Is it only me who thinks this way or is it for real? I earn money and provide him with money whenever he's in need. I never ask it back. Even if I do, he just shrugs it away with "Can't you do that much for me?"  And it's not some petty cash he borrows from me. He asks for huge amounts but never returns it back. He asked me to buy a scooter from my own money in his company's name. What am I to say? This is not the first case where I feel like I am being taken advantage of.
The fortune teller told us that I have a very good husband written on my fate and I should respect him. I am supposed to have a very fortunate married life. But I think, all my husband does is take advantage of me. Whenever he needs something from me, he becomes soft towards me. But whenever he gets into trouble or something unfortunate happens to him, he blames everything on me. He used to tell me that I am not a good wife as per the ancient scritpures. A good woman/ wife needs to take care of her husband, her husband's family, do all household chores and not complain. However, a husband/ man does not have to take responsibility of anything. He does not even fold his own clothes. I have to do that for him or else he will shout at me. He just likes giving advices and lectures to everyone. He does not accept his fault in anyway. Even though we both work, after I come home, I have to do all the household chores. But he does not have to do anything as he is a man and he is tired.
I am tired of living like this but still cannot gather enough courage to leave him. My mom, his mom wants me to have a baby. For a while, I also wanted to have a baby but I don't know if I really wanted it on my own or just thought I wanted it because everyone was telling me to have one. I am not sure whether I will be happy having a child with him. 
I am afraid to ask him for any kind of help because later on he will just act as if he has done a great favour for me and I have to be grateful for that. But is he grateful in return? 

Relationships

I’m skinny so this uncle in my building comes up to me and asks me if I eat anything. You’re very skinny you’ll fall down if you walk. He advised me to eat and then I thanked him but when I came home I felt like locking myself and never going anywhere to meet anyone . I cried a lot . I try to control my emotions when people ask me about my weight but yesterday I couldn’t

Sleepy...

Anxiety

It feels weird having extreme anxiety about group discussions. I feel weird having to develop that ever since Tuesday afternoon.

The mantra "This will pass on too." Isn't it the one liner of the life? How do you see it? 
Personally, I feel it is powerful during the lowest part of life but once we recover it affects the happy phase by reminding the happy phase will change too. I switch case it "Live the moment." at my happy phase with logical sense to create a safety future to an extent. Pour your thoughts! 

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