Someone I know says they’re upset and that they don’t like to talk to people when they’re upset so we agreed to take a break from chatting. It’s been a month now and we’ve had a little talk here and there, but now we don’t talk and they said they’d message eventually, but I’ve waited a week now without any messages and feel like giving up on waiting. Apparently they’ve done it before with other people but those people stopped talking because they couldn’t cope with being blocked out. Do I do the same??

Ive had been in a similar situation and honestly i stopped talking to them . Doesnt make much sense to wait too long for them to revert back. 

Well the same happened with me i just stopped thinking about them and got busy in my life. If they value you they'll text 

Anxiety

So, I haven't posted on here since February and its because I've been feeling a little better. I don't think I have though. I just kind of felt empty and worked so much to mask the pain I was feeling. But recently I've been feeling like a huge screw up. It just feels like I am always messing something up. And I completely hate myself. People tell me to stop trying to be perfect and stop being negative and isolated but its just too hard. I mean when you spend 22 years of your life hating every aspect of yourself how can you change that? 22 years of the same behavior needs to change. I mean is that even possible? The days that I work I feel okay. But the days that I'm off I feel horrible. It takes me forever to get out of bed, if I even make it that far. I usually just stay in bed till the next day I have to work. My dad gets mad at me for "sleeping" all the time. I literally tell him I'm not sleep I just want to be alone in my room. Its nice and cold and no sun light comes in. I love it. As soon as I get up to try and interact with my family I instantly get irritated. Its so hard. I don't know what's wrong with me. I just wanna stay alone and unbothered. But when I do I feel lonely? But I don't wanna interact with the people in my house? I really wish I could figure out what was wrong with me. Thanks for listening to my rant if anyone read this. (: 

3am Thoughts

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Both are different kadha.. 

Anyone from Delhi ? 

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Share your worst childhood trauma which you are still struggling to get out of and I'll help you out.

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Overthinking

Have you ever fakely existed between your friends and people who cares about  you individually forgets you completely when they meet others .and I stay thare with the fake smile like it is one of our best gathering ever 🤷.but the problem is that I can't say no 😌.

Lonely

Stress doesn’t always guarantee success. It may lead to a mental health breakdown.  Work hard, but don’t forget to take care of yourself.  

Pressure may make diamonds but nurturing makes flowers,  the flowers are far far more valuable.  


Body Positivity

does anyone have a trauma that other people might think is "ridiculous" ? 
it sucks that no matter how many times i explain how much it hurts me, they talk about it like its no big deal. just recently, i went on a trip that lasted a week, and as much as i wanted to enjoy it, what happened on the first day of the trip, made me feel like i was about to go insane for the rest of the week when my trauma had been brought back up.
so let me give yall the backstory before i continue. Basically, back when i was 10, my aunt and my cousin had invited me to a salon since at the time, i had a really bad habit on not brushing my hair and it would always tangle up like when a cat has a hairball (my hair is really thick btw), so of course i agreed since i was too lazy to untangle it myself (takes a lot of time but is possible to untangle with just a brush, conditioner, water, and a little bit of patience). to make my hair look more clean, i also decided to "trim" a bit. which is obviously known as just a tiny cut and not even half of your hair. so while my hair was in the works, i was just talking to my aunt not being aware of anything else. but not long after, i felt like more air was felt on my shoulders than it ever did before. something didnt feel right so i tried to look back but then both my aunt, cousin, and the stylist herself, stopped me while i started feeling anxious. (note: i dont know why but i couldnt see my hair at all at the time, i did not even focus on the mirror, or if there even was one). 

few minutes later, the stylist is done. the stylist then shows me the hair and i was shocked. it wasnt a good shocked, i started tearing up. i asked her what she did to my hair when all i asked for was a trim. it turned out as almost a bob cut. getting out of the salon crying, i tried to talk to my cousin but she completely ignored me as well as my aunt. when i came back to my mom i immediately broke down to her and she hugged me asking me what happened. my aunt then told her to ignore me but luckily my mom didnt. i told her what happened and she continued to hug me.

that didnt last long though, few years after the same occurrence except my oldest sister did it this time, she told me to "get used to it". i cried to the bathroom and just sat in there in the dark. 

now 2 weeks ago before this trip, it happened again with my other sister. when i just wanted to dye my hair. she asked if it was okay for her to trim to make it of course, "look cleaner" so i thought out of everyone, she would understand me most because she actually didnt slap my feelings away. well, until now.  but this time, i dont really blame her as much. because why? i acted the opposite than i did before, without even realizing it. i thought i'd be okay this time but the more i look at my hair in the mirror, the memories start circling back to me, with a sentence that i said to myself, "dont you remember what happened years ago?" "how are you okay now?". and i only started feeling this way again when my sister who did it this time, told my aunt that started this in the first place, that i had "grown up" knowing well that my aunt is never going to consider my feelings now and will talk about this every time my hair is at a certain length now. someone else even said to me "you're hair! not crying anymore?" when they saw my hair during the trip. 

do i have to print out the definition of what a "trim" is every time i ask for a trim now?




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