Some times I just want to end it all.
Wish I can hit this shit out of my head.
I don't want to remember any of it.
Theres the ones who drink and do drugs, when they dont want to live and there's the ones that just do it. 
well guess what. I dont drink and I don't drugs.
Tired of thinking of everything.
It doesnt even matter how good you are in life. 
Life isnt about deserving or getting what you wish for.
I told myself to wake up a long time ago.
Life is shit to good people.
I never got anything in life but pain. Threw away my religion and beliefs. 

I dont post on here for advice or with glout.


Hi, I just want to say that you are not alone and that we will be here to listen to you about anything in your head. Please feel free to tell us what is bothering you and making you have these thoughts. Will try to help out as much as I can

Life

Sending love and hugs to everyone who's feeling tired today and feels like crying. It's okay my darlings. It's okay to cry. It's okay to bury your face in the pillow and cry all night. I know you feel a deep void in your heart and sometimes it gets too much. But it's okay. We are in this together. We have got this and we will win this. Love and hugs!

Dear Meredith

Love

where tf my msg button gone??💀

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It's 12.30am here now...what time is it there?

3am Thoughts

I feel very sad anxious and scared. It’s long weekend for everyone. All will be at home… things are already not going well… there is stressful environment at home. People are not talking…people are in anger.. some are anxious and sad. This all is happening on festive itself. There is no festival vibes here….plus I have birthday in these days.I just wish to pass these days with peace…

Yesterday one of my friend asked me about Rakhi preparation and sweets making at home.. I was literally in tears I wanted to tell her that my family may end up fighting this weekend while others are celebrating Rakhi… but said nothing..

I am just tired..


Anxiety

Feeling lost in the crowd.. 
My tears dropping down.. 
Meeting the ground.. 

I am feeling a lil nervous like what if I don’t mind the man of my dreams? What if I don’t get into the college I want to? Well even though I haven’t figured out but once I do what if I don’t get in? Like ofc it’s gonna be the best one for me bec im literally taking a gap year just to figure out what are the right decisions and steps I should take for myself. But like I am scared. What if I screw it all up? What if I get nervous? Which I am rn. I am so scared. The man I thought loved me turned out to be fake like he only conditionally loved me not unconditionally. I thought the love and acceptance and care and protection was unconditionally like I dreamt of and thought I deserved. Turned out that wasn’t the case. Anyways over it. We broke up. Just that im scared what if I don’t mind the man? The one? What if I don’t mess around and find out what’s meant for me? Because rn I believe the only way to find if a man believes in himself and true love the way I do … is 
If I start taking action into finding if I can..do the things I want to. True love is ik for a fact, it is me, myself. Once I find myself I can find the loml. But to find myself is scary and difficult and takes a lot of discipline which I lacked today. I woke up late, I didn’t feel like waking up even when I was awake, and I skipped my morning bath and walk that I was supposed to take! I feel terrible! Ig im being a lil too harsh on myself rn (just realised) and I should calm myself down and allow myself to relax and realise that I still have half of the day to make it work again instead of giving up and thinking the whole day went to a shithole and was a waste and is gonna be a waste. 

But still..d’you all think im gonna find the man? And myself? I need a lil validation? Does anyone here believe in me? That I can?

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