So what do I focus my life on now? The only thing I know I want in my life is to be married and have kids. I don’t care what else happens but I want a family for myself. But in order for me to have a family I need to find someone I love enough. I need to get a good job and I need to be happy with myself. How do I become happy?. I need to figure that out first but I have nobody to turn to anymore. I need help and I don’t know who to ask for it. I don’t want to ask for it actually. I want to be alone and sad and have nobody bother me. I don’t understand why everyone uses me. I wish someone would love me. I told him I love him but he didn’t say it back. But I don’t love him like that I love him as a friend. Why do I feel like my life is falling apart. A horrible thing happened to me but my life doesn’t have to stop. But I have made it stopped. I’ve done this to myself. I need to help myself and better my life. I don’t need anyone I only need myself. But in order for me to be able to depend on myself I have to love myself. I have to forgive myself and I don’t know how to do that. What do I do with my life now? I need God to help me and show me. Where is he right now in my time of need? I feel as though I have never been as low as I am right now. Because right now I don’t think I will ever be able to pick myself up and continue with my life. Before I picked myself up and pushed through
B T @bt1510
You already thought so much, but don’t forget you will eventually find all what is meant to be in your life, don’t forget this is not your final stage, better days are gonna come someday, keep yourself positive till those days embrace you
So many thoughts but its natural for you to feel that way. You are not alone. Whenever youre overwhelmed, just write it in your journal or vent here. Ask for help.