So... Ummm... There's this guy in my class. He's very normal looking and guess what he's quiet. Like quiet in a whole another level. During free period he sits still or reads a book. He prefers silence rather that talking with anyone. Even when we were in the middle of playing games he would be sitting alone with another young kid(he's his brother 'I think) . 
Like is this normal? Or there's something up with him....? 

I am same but when I talk I really talk much..

Yess! Talk to him. He is probably shy or anxious to talk to ppl.

Miso

Should 'I observe him a lil more? And Maybe try and talk with him?

Colleague

I am screwed. I am imagining him while listening to love songs 

3am Thoughts

It was my sister's birthday today and having a birthday of someone who is so emotionally abusive and narcissistic, she expects the world to worship her. Last year, I got her really good gifts and a personalised cake which resembled her personality a lot, but guess what, she cut her cake (which I got made for her) and fed it to her bf first (who is her ex now) , and my gift to her is at his house. Even this year, she did the same and fed it to her new bf. I always feel very used and neglected when I am with her. It's the little things like she cuts me off whenever I am speaking (all the time), always has her head down ans changes conversation when anyone is talking about me, she gets jealous when her new bf and I get friendly, she pressurized me into giving my fav t shirt to him. And she started to cry because she didn't get much attention like last year. I have to be at a constant state of smiles, cheerineess, ans understanding when I have to be with her otherwise it's always like "what is wrong with you?" Or "why are you spoiling everyone's mood". Her bf talks about her 24/7 but she will always find a reason to find something odd and fight. 

"Do you wanna be comfortable or do you wanna grow? Cos you can't do both."
Thoughts on this?

Life

Anyone who would like to talk with me🥺👋🏻?

Sometimes I wish I can find that dream friend of mine, in person. One's who have interest in Netflix shows and are fond of discussing it or just watching shows together until dark. Go out and have a good time during the summer holidays. God it is so damn lonely and I just wish I had a best best friend 😞 I know no one can do anything about what kind of friend I want because it isn't a game to fish out what friend you want or who you don't... Just feeling hopeless and I just need a good friend :( all my friends are either damn fake, through screen or just far away. No one to even talk to face to face 

Lonely

Will they believe me? Are they gonna trust me? Will be cover up the boys of this family? Or will they ask me to stay bounded? Will they support me? Do i still have the chance to confront that i have been sexually abused by two of my brothers, and one who was just trying to do, but i spoke, i changed my place, i went to other corner of bed. Why is it me? I don't have curves, i don't have the perfect body, still me? What was the curse I paid for? I want to get this whole shit out of me. Some days i feel like i have healed. But no, it doesn't happen. They'll blame me for the things that happened. I want someone to come to me say, no, it was nothing onyour part. Trust me, the very first tym it happened, i didn't know that it was wrong, it shouldn't hv happened, regardless of wht the situation was.  Next tym, i didn't have the guts to stop  the prsn, after 2 min i did, he sat onthe floor, justifying that it was his gf in his dream. I didn't have the guts to tell  someone who could have taken the action. I went to a cousin's place, he's you ger than m, around 4 to 5 years, i was sleeping in shorts. He was again again trying yo position his hand in a way that it touched my legs. This time iknew to speak . I changed my position. In the morning i asked him.about what he was trynna do. He said nothing, you.might have a misunderstanding.  I didn't have a proof.
 would someone blv me when it wasn't even my home?

Child Abuse

Know that you are exactly where you are meant to be , even though you may not be where you thought you would. 

Do everything you have to do, but not with greed, not with ego, not with lust , not with envy but with love, compassion, humanity and devotion. ❤❤

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