So today or these days i have panic attacks on little things idk why n how but my school frnd was bout to leave me all alone we have our frndship since we were 5 and now that he and I had a small fight he just doesn't seem to care n i feel like all the stress n depression in coming my way

Well let's hope he comes back this distance thing is really not my thing yeahhh I'm a crazy ass overthinker but thank uh for listening I appreciate your efforts n will try to stay clam

Anxiety

sorry to rant it all out here but I have too it feels like a burden on my chest so, there’s this one guy whom I really like maybe love but I know we cannot be together due to many many reasons and he doesn’t feels the same he loves someone else so I wanted to get away from them but it’s really hard he told me he doesn’t talk to her anymore but today I got to know they have been going out since past couple of days and they’re enjoying their time together this guy I didn’t feel anything for him at first but then I fell for him and we had sex he told me I was important to him but I know I’m not I never was now I regret each and everything I really want to distance myself from them and get away as far as I can but I don’t know how, it’s really painful to see them I wanna get away

LOW !! DULL !!

Hi i am 31 yrs old mother of one daughter.I am from small city & now settled in Noida from last 7 yrs.Before marriage i have gone through many rough phases.From beginning I have no aim in my life (like career wise) bt after marriage now I wanted to work in fact I was earning before my daughter.Mow with one of my colleague I have started working in his organisation.
Problem is from last 1 yr I am working with him without any salary(as he just startrd his company & he is from not very rich family) so he have some financial issues.2-3months before we shipped some of our orders & our buyer has not paid him completely.
Now its our 2nd season he wants me to help his new set up & he will clear my all pending dues asap.But now my husband is saying NO to me for work.He is saying why u want to work in free??
I told my husband that he will pay me asap also I have only 2-3 months after that I will sit at home & will do baby sitting(bcz my daughters care taker will soon be going her Hometown for months).I convinced my mother in law so she agreed or else I can say she supported me but my husband re is not happy with me at all.
Today in morning I asked him to drop me to office he refused & asked me to go by myself.Istarted crying.
I alway feel that I don't earn much money.Initially I didn't wanted to work but now cant sit at home.
slo my husband wants me to start business with him, but I know we cant work together.😞😣😐😑

Lonely

hii guys! theres this guy i like him so much ..i literally think about him everytime .He is so nice and sweet guy and honestly a staight forward man ..I would say . i dont know if he likes me or not !? he texts me the minute after i text him,but he nerver opens up to me .like yesterday something happened with him ...i asked him if he wants to talk about it ...he said no and i didnt force him to speak with me ...but honestly i think he likes me little ... i dont know i just cant help but believe that .I ask him about what he does ,how he was etc but he never cared to ask me ... the only time he asked me ,about my stuff was when i met him ...and that was only for what 5-10 mins 
am i obsessing over him ?
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Relationships

I've been in a 4 year relationship with my boyfriend (ex now)...in 2016 ......now I'm 18 but it's been really hard for me to forget or move on .... hoping I'll feel better after sharing here...

When I was 14 I met him he was 18.....I have no idea what his intentions were at the time.....I fell in love with him really hard.....this was my first relationship.....we started talking through social media...my parents didn't allow me to have boyfriends or friends that were boys...so we couldn't meet....one day my parents went to another state...so he suggested that he came to my house and I was home alone....that was the first time we met....at first everything was going okay....then he suddenly started getting really close...I was really uncomfortable but I didn't want to hurt his feelings...he tried to kiss me...I tried to get away but he blocked me ....he still kissed...I told him I wasn't ready ...coz this was my first time....he didn't really care and then tried to put his hand under my shirt I stopped him and he let go....I didn't say anything after that and then he left.....he texted me as if everything was normal....I thought I could trust him and hoped he wouldn't do it again....I was wrong ...everytime I met him he tried to kiss me...and touching me even when I tried to push him away..but I still couldn't leave him bcoz it hurt me alot...he knew that ...he cheated on me and then his friend told me...I believed the lies he told me bcoz I didn't want to believe that he would actually cheat on me...I used to be really dumb...ik that.. looking back now.....I stayed with him...I tried to let him kiss me or touch or whatever...but I couldn't...he would get angry and say that I didn't really love him...he would flirt with so many girls of my age only...now that I think about it ..y was he only talking to 14 years olds ..the girl he cheated on me with was my age too....

Next year he broke up with me...he didn't even bother to tell me he told his cousin to telme .....I fucking broke...the last time we had met b4 the break up he tried to put his hand down there then he realised I wouldn't allow him so he stopped....I was hurt and so lost...I went crazy...how could he .....

When I turned 15 he wished me happy birthday...I was getting better..and then he had to msg me ....I went back to him ...I forgave him ....and again he hurts me....the first day we meet after the break up....I fall asleep next to him...woke up with his hand in my pants ...I push him away but he holds me then and then tried to...after all that...he says he's sorry...I forgive him again...I didn't wanna lose him again...but it continued everytime we met .....I forgave him everytime...he started controlling me...told me what to do...what to wear...who to talk to...who to stop talking to...took control of all my social media..and told me he would leave me if I don't listen...so many times I had to beg him to stay when I didn't obey....

On our 2nd year anniversary....he pushed it too far and mad me jerk him off and tried to have sex with me...I didn't want to....he had already planned all of it and even had condoms ready ...he didn't even give me a choice....I told him enough but he didn't stop ..then my sister banged my door so he stopped ...she unknowingly saved me sort of....but I was dumb enough not to leave then and there....next time he did it..he didn't even care ...I pushed ..I told him to wait...I would try to get away but no use....I just wanted to spend time with him...but he only wanted that...this continued for till feb 2020....when I tried to explain to him what I was feeling he just ignored ...I told him that the only reason I had sex with him was because of him and not because I wanted and that I wanted him to stop now bcoz I couldn't take it anymore he was like "so?" So??...that was all....he didn't even stop..and it was too hard for me to leave him ...I started cutting ...and when he found out he left me standing there...he was mean to me...when he came back he held my hands so hard it hurt.....after that he became slightly violent ...and started hitting me not a lot....just a few slaps here and there....I saw how other ppl were treated in their relationships...I tried to tell him how I wanted to be treated ....and when I told him I would leave...he told me he would change...he would be good for one day and then start again....he would force me to send nudes and when I didn't the next time we met he would forcefully take my pics and videos and say that if I had just sent then this wouldn't be necessary....I left him telling that I wanted a break bcoz of my exams ....and then I realised I was much more at peace without him....

To this day he still begs me to go back... sometimes when I feel weak ..I wanna go back bcoz of the love I thought we had....but I realised only I really loved him ...he was using me....it was his intentions from the beginning..who I had fallen in love with wasn't there anymore that was just pretend....his true colors were revealed later.... ironically he was the only person I felt safe with....or comfort ...but scared too....now I'm in another state....he found out where I am...I still get scared that he may show up

Harassment

I feel stuck, it's been more than 2 months of my breakup and why do I still care about him?

Confusion

I recently broke up with my boyfriend. While we knew each other for last two years (as close friends), it was only recently I met him for offline.

The moment we met, we got into a relationship. I always felt I am not worthy of a proper love story and my insecurities got better of me.

He asked me for some space as he was dealing with some personal crisis and health issues. But keeping me in dark for weeks, checking my msgs and not replying, especially at a time when I was struggling and it felt like my lifeline is gone. He was a guide to me and i couldn't do well without having him around.

I fell down into a spiral of emotional breakdowns and overthinking that made me question his love. (Also sent a long message blaming myself and partially blaming him too).

That hurt him and he cut off all communication with me without even a word. Recently he gave me a closure when I begged him to answer what's going on. It hurt him that I lost trust in him and his love and since I always end up having this insecurities, mental breakdowns, he didn't want to get bogged down by my mental health.

I know am at fault.  This is second relationship I am losing because of my mistakes and I try real hard to change myself.

I also know I hurt him badly. He changed my attitude towards men and proved me there are nice, decent and gentlemen out there.

Now I don't know what to make of this. How to rectify myself. My relationship is over, he is gone.

I am left with my mind that's always anxious, chaotic and broken. I don't want to be like this. I wish I knew what to do.

I hate myself so much that I became that clingy girlfriend who couldn't give her bf some space. Being the other side of the toxic spectrum hurts so bad! I was the toxic one here and I can't seen to handle it. 

Breakup

I love him, He unaware about it. I am unemployed and I thought I will build my career and then I will propose him. In 2020 I get post graduated and due to corona I am stiil unemployed.  Today I got call from him that he is going to meet a girl for marriage(arrange meeting by his parents). 
when I listened this my heart stop for a second and my eyes wet. but still i managed to talk to him and said "Great, when you are going to meet her". and he said tomorrow.
I have decided that I am not going to tell him that I love him and Maybe he not intersted in me and also I affraid to tell him that I love him.
He deserve better girl than me and I dont want to ruin his life being unemployed and dependent on other. I have decided that first I will get a job and focus on my life only.
aage ka aage dekha jayega!! 
I wanted to share this things to someone and  ended here.😌😣☹️

Hustle

I have been cheated on by a guy i never thought would EVER cheat on me. We’ve been together for a long time. I know and feel that he loves me so much. He’s such a nice kind hearted guy. He is sweet and compassionate. I always thought before that if ever this very nice guy would ever cheat on me, then i will not be able to trust anyone anymore. Then so it happens. :( I found out that hes been cheating on me for almost a year. its so heartbreaking, traumatizing.  am so angry that i felt the need to get even. I get even and let him know what i did. We cried and became so toxic. Then he cheated on me again and again. We gave each other a chance. (I know. Im stupid. Thats why im angry at myself too:( ) But I become so toxic to our relationship because I really felt disrespected, unwanted, insecure. 4years after what happened, i still get angry about it. He seems okay. But as for me, i still have regrets forgiving him for everything that he did. I always think about it every day. How he made me feel. The disrespect. The pain that i felt when its seems okay with him that he is hurting me. 

Now, i can see that he is a changed man. But the thing is. I’m still mad at him. I am always angry at him. And eventhough I’m always picking up a fight and pushing him away. He understand and choose not to fight with me. Its so sad that when someone hurts you, it is still your OWN responsibility to heal. I’m so hurt and angry. And i don’t know what to do to help myself overcome this. 

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