so, telling me to dive in water u won't dip ur feet in, tend to make me question u for lots of reasons.

for a moment no, i smoked a blunt. so i'm a little slow as i'm floating.

3am Thoughts

Today I feel so suffocated. I feel like not doing anything. I'm sad if I don't do anything I will be left behind but I don't have any motivation to do anything .I'm also bit confused where I belong .i kinda think I lonely 

i know it's not good to self medicate (i forgot that word when u think u have an illness so u assume you have it) but i just think i may have depression and ocd, im not really sure since im no psych and ive never met one since money issues but i have this feeling it's either of those, or i may be just doing all this because of hormones, but then again it happens too often i think it could be possible, i dont even want to admit it because my mom might just think it's not real lol

Disorders

Some endings are beautiful too🌸
Yes in the process you will feel hurt but end result is worth 

i passed through a phase
a bad one suicidal thoughts ,anxiety ,depression
things solved
days passed ,today it has been 3 years (almost)
i have totally become a different person
disciplined , i have my principles
and i just follow them
but i don’t know why i am so sad now
i don’t have friends
person i like keeps giving me on and off feedback
it was around 5 months ago
i removed 500 followers from my social media account
and now everyone judges me from my profile that i am not that famous of a person
but instead i was the most popular person at school and tutions i visited
life has been a mess
i don’ know what to do
how to control my emotions
how to be happy

Adulting

I have tried to write here some time ago too, but I deleted it, thinking that people might not understand me. But then I saw so many people expressing their thoughts and I decided to write too.
I have started feeling nothing. I am not lazy but I am not active as we'll. I want to take interest in things but I don't want to too. This is so weird. I sometimes feel like I am sad and other times I feel like I forgot what my problems are and I laugh. It's like I know I am going through something but I don't want to address it or face it. Maybe this is my weakness but I dont know how to overcome it. I binge-watch stuff to waste my time and use this as my emotional defense mechanism which is so crazy. I feel like I don't know what to do with all this. I try to run away from it. :(

Maybe it's the stress, but it's like I dont feel like facing it or even introspecting on it which apparently I know I should.



Lonely

My grandfather cannot hear stuff if we scream it in his face but he can hear the sound of my father's car lock 3 floors down. Can someone tell me how that works😂

have you ever feel not belong anywhere and wherever you try to fit in you just broke yourself even more?

Insecurity

I want to scream loud... Very very loud... Wanna free my soul from these insane heartless people's cage... Wanna free my body my mind... Is there no way for me... oh god please have some mercy on me... Can't you see my tears, my broken pieces... Please set me free

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