I hope this passes soon n you get to smile with your whole heart again β€οΈ
seo ah @seo
is it so? but now I think that I donβt deserve happiness or maybe I donβt want to be happy because every time when I am delighted something terrible happens and that makes me sad
I think i have a note i wrote sometime back that you might like
I still ask those questions to myself i once told you all about. Comeon i canβt be that specific, you know how careful i am about sharing my thoughts with others, i know you think i am just a sad soul roaming around with a mask that keeps falling off randomly, but i wouldnβt even want to change any bit of these lines as they make me realise how wrongly people could even think about someone who isnβt afraid of embracing their dark side, to the extent where they are actually able to smile while listening to all those sad lyrics only because i could feel what those words do mean, but that doesnβt mean it makes me happy at all, but more like making me fall in love with the state of my own melancholy. I know you would never agree with me, how sadness could help you find your peace, but that is the only reason my smile is most real while i am crying silently.
seo ah @seo
Exactly thatβs what he told meβ¦ He expected me to be happy even when i didnβt want toβ¦ He got tired of me when he was the one who told me show that side to himβ¦ he never understood that i didnβt wanted him to help me all i wanted from him was to support me when i am weakβ¦ he started ignoring my texts when i used to send him about my feelings and only replies to the one that had something goodβ¦ he came to me because he thought i am a sorted person and when i told me i am not he made me feel like i am not even human being even when i told him all about my terrible past he told me that i donβt have reasons to be depressedβ¦ the only thing i wanted him to understand was that i do have reasons for everything and i canβt be happy everytime he wants me too but he didnβt understand any of themβ¦ and made me look like a fool in my own eyes
Iβm so sorry you had to go through all that π₯Ί you can always share whatβs on your mind or what youβre feeling here okay? I will try to support or atleast listen to you whenever i see your post :) you have us by your side okay?
seo ah @seo
thank you so much
Not needed, happy to help :)
What he exactly say about you building relationship
seo ah @seo
he told me that I canβt build any kind of relationships with anyone because of my depressionβ¦