So..not quite sure how to open up like this to a platform but maybe I wanna let it all out.. it's a hell lotta burden.. I'm gonna have my ISC in one month and this is me who can't focus on anything... recently I've had a bad conversation with my best friend..a real bad one..and then there's no one I can talk to regarding what's going on in my life...I don't have anyone to call my family maybe I have but at the same time I don't... I'm just to stressed about everything that's going on around me...and I have no Idea how to deal with it all by myself... it's weird.. everything is weird actually...

I have real good friends to look upto..but at the same time I don't..idk it's complicated

Hey chill
Maine bhi last year hi boards diye hai and fun fact I was from ISC too
Trust me it's all fine 
Abhi bhot kuch dekhna hai dost wgera aayenge jayenge but few will always be there for you! You just have to look for the real one

Anxiety

I am scared due to bad breakup in past..
I am still there mentally emotionally.. 
Need help..
Nothing working out.. 
It seems like I am progressing towards end..
I don't wanna do it. I don't want to do it.. I don't want to do it.. God
Please send someone.. I can't handle this anymore.. I am tired now.. 

Depression

Feeling restless without any reason

Confusion

I feel depressed. Like properly depressed. I have difficulty breathing, it feels like my lungs are about to burst. Watching Juice’s documentary made me feel sadder. I sometimes wonder what it’d be like to leave this world. I was always curious about life after death, but recently I've been thinking about it more than ever before. I can hear my mom listening to “Mistletoe and Wine”, since it’s Xmas week. Usually I’d be singing silently along with it, but now this just makes me annoyed. Perhaps I’ve sunk so deep to the point that I don’t wish to be not depressed. Don’t know if that makes sense though. Nothing makes sense these days anyway so I guess it’s fine. I’m trying to study, hopefully saying all this makes me feel better. Paper does have more patience than people after all.

Sometimes I feeling very energetic but same time I don't feel working on anything and have minor headache. You guys ever feel that way?

3am Thoughts

I’m tired (physically and emotionally) and broke and stressed. I work three jobs just to get by and whenever i need to vent these emotions, to my family or my fiancé i end up hurting someone or saying something I’ll regret. 
I’m tired of living pay check to pay check, but i feel like I’ll never get out. Sometimes i feel like its my fault and i worry that one day People will get just as tired of the stress as i am and I’ll be alone and broke. I already feel i need to be careful with expressing how i feel because i often get angry and say the wrong thing when i do. I’m not suicidal, I fear the Lord too much that. However i do feel useless and cursed at times.  I’m not even sure what this site is, I’m at my 3rd job I’m the overnight shift and I’ve barely slept the last two days. I guess i just wanted to yell (type) into the void, for a few seconds before i get back to work. Sorry for any typos, i don’t really have the Time or motivation to look over it

Man i can’t even seem to find the right tag on this site that fits what I’m posting :/ i did the best i could with the options they had

Work

There's a horrible feeling in my chest whenever something goes wrong. I always used to keep it in, not telling anyone because I hate showing anyone I'm vulnerable. My mom is supportive but I hate that she has to be strong even if it might devastate her. I feel almost always on edge, stressed, anxious, angry at myself for not being good enough. I always question if I deserve anything or anyone's support. I always compare myself to others, hating on myself. I cry it out and it gets better for a while, but that feeling never goes away. I think I need help, but don't know whats wrong with me. 

Stress

 And here's the truth. I've been broken for so long. And I get attached way to fast. I'm lost and l'm scared. I'm scared of everything. The littlest things scare the hell out of me. I'm scared of being happy. Or smiling. Or putting myself out there again. Because every time I do I end up getting hurt. And I have no one.I feel so alone. And thank no one cares. I'm scared to live but 'm scared to die. I hurt every day. Ever when I seem like I don't. I do, I cry to much. And I push people away cause I think that's what I need. I don't know what's good for me. And I don't want to. I don't want to have to be the Boy who's easy or dumb. Or worthless.try soooo hard to be enough and some how I never am.I open up to much. To the point where now I don't ever open up. I lock myself in my room and I hope that someone out there is thinking about me. Even though know no one is. I see all my flaws and think maybe girls see them too. I always go for the girls I know are going to hurt me. And that hurts me to say. I'm always a forgiving person. And I always let people in and open my heart for them to just break it. I am always there when no one is ever there for me. And I never think about myself. Only everyone else. And when I do think about myself I'm selfish. So l'm scared. & I'm am absolutely terrified.




Self Esteem

RUN..!!!!
Running for or from what ? 
Running to conquer or running away for what you fear.
Why are we living in a race knowing that we will end up getting tired of it .
Is it that we are ignorant of this piece of knowledge or is it that we are trying to prove others or ourselves wrong .
What is it ? 
Does there really need to an everlasting race where we run till the clock stops ticking for us ? 
Are the paths defined for this race or are we to make it ourselves or find lesser loitered ways?
At the end what is the purpose of this race ?


Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts