Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

So… my parents know that I have sensitive hearing and I catch even the slightest sound. I yet again failed my CA exam, they didn’t react much this around because it was my 4th attempt, neither did I react that much. But today they talked about me… when they thought i wasn’t around. I was actually in my room on second floor but as i said i tend to hear even when they talk in hushed voices. And they talked about how they should just give up on me, how it is just better for me to finish my Graduation degree and that they’ll be glad if i even finish that. They talked about how much extra things they have to do for me and that I when will I be getting my articleship started and that they are frustrated to the point where they think it would be better to send me somewhere where studying will be easier.

I don’t wish to hear these things… they know that I can hear them well… I didn’t cry when the results were declared qnd I failed again but I cried today. I wish I didn’t have such sensitive ears. I wished I wasn’t able to hear at all. I wish I wasn’t born at all. I wish they had other children so that they wouldn’t be so disappointed. I wish they had a better child. They are getting older and older… and I am still dependent on them. What if…