Olivia @honestly
so itโs 3:27 am in the morning and iโm writing this thing I know a bit early I just woke up though. I wanted to say thank you for all your support itโs nice to know you have a community backing you now into the story. I have a friend in the group home which is a staff weโve been through the ups and downโs together and I mean downโs by we were driving and she got lost and I was mad and asked her to pull over cause I wanted to get out of the car so I took my seat belt off in the middle of traffic and opened the door I know it wasnโt safe and I will never do that again and then she asked me to close the door she was scared for my safety and she started crying and said I always do everything to try to make you happy. then I started crying when we went back home one of the staff said to give me some space even though thatโs not what I wanted then I called the ambulance and went to the hospital. fast forward to the ups of our friendship she told me at the hospital I iโm her favourite but she treatโs everyone like they are her favourite or she likes one kid better then me. so I try to be more like them and it doesnโt work I remember the first time she was here it was chaotic there was a fight going on it was her first shift between two kids and I asked her if she wanted to paint with me to get her mind of off the situation she declined. we bonded over the hate of Donald trump fast forward to 2021 and things got a little sticky well okay a lot sticky she kept lying to me a lot and every time I told her something personal she would do Pseudo-listening which means she wasnโt really listening she would just say she was listening but when a another kid would say something personal about their life she would fully listen and eye contact. she always tries to make me feel better but sometimes she only makes me feel better when someone askโs her too for example when I was crying she was about to leave her boyfriend was waiting in the car until my Mom told her to comfort me and she did.when we were in the house she told me I never cry in front of people I donโt feel comfortable with. every time I talk to her sheโs just on her phone ignoring me not paying attention or seems annoyed.
I feel like firstly, do not compare urself with others. Even if she likes one kid better, you donโt NEED to change and become like them. You are different and thatโs ur uniqueness. Also, maybe try asking her that does she really want to talk to you or is she herself is facing some problems. Otherwise, just try and share your feelings with someone else if the current person is not responding in a way you expect. There are a lot of ppl who will be there to help you, donโt be dependent on just one, explore.