So it is a very weird thing to discuss but I believe itโs a safe space so im just gonna go with itโฆ
So, I have been in love once and I recently had to move on from that person since he was in a relationship with somebody else. The thing is we were never in a relationship and we barely used to talk and I donโt know how this happened but Iโve been in love with that guy for like more than 3 years. I was all into him and literally knew almost everything about him and I kinda think he liked me too in the beginning but then we both were veryyyy shy people so none of us took the first step and then he backed off and now heโs in a happy relationship. I never confessed my feelings, nobody except my best friend knows about this. And yes I have completely moved on now but the thing what keeps bothering me is that this weird kindof thought I have in mind that whether or not Iโll ever meet my soulmate or what if I would never be able to recognize the person meant for me. I overthink a lot and since my only love story failed, I canโt help but keep thinking and stressing out over the uncertainty of future. Thankyou for reading such a long message. :)
I actually got rejected before I even asked the girl I liked out, she was single as well. I thought she liked me since she would always ask me questions like if I have a gf or like asking me if my female friend was really my friend. I always thought about things way too much. Sometimes, I would still think about the day that happened. I couldโve changed everything, and I hate myself for that. I just wish I could turn back time and see how things wouldโve ended if I went up and talked to her. I hate myself for being so stupid. I gave her a few hints. Instead of her asking about it, she just turned away from me like I was nothing. I was depressed for a while. You know, just chilling and listening to lofi and stuff. I come back the next day to go to a mediation. She started rambling about things I never done to her. Things got worse and she straight up told me that she doesnโt want to talk to me anymore. At that point my heart completely shattered. Rumors about me being a perv started to spread by her friends. I have never felt more betrayed in my whole life.
It happens to everyone who tries without deciding when they are ready.
I mean if you decide on a point in future where you have prepared yourself enough.
(Yes, you need to prepare) you will have enough confidence for anyone you like.
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