So I while back an Early College High School I applied for accepted me but I declined the offer because band is my passion and what my career choice is but I’m questioning if it was the right thing to do

Close your eyes and choose what your heart aches for

Career

I’m stuck in a house with an abuser. I don’t want to die but death might be the only solution.

Suicidal Ideation

Just want to take a moment to hold her and live the rest of my life in that moment. 🥺

3am Thoughts

How do y'all deal with committment issues? Actually I have never been into a relationship and whenever someone tries to like me or if I like someone I suddenly push them away...and actually I think people get bored of me after spending some time..also I've trust issues and I'm an overthinker...is life mein mera kuch nahi hosakta I'm damn sure lol😶

Confusion

is it shameful if my father caught that I used his razor blade for shaving because I am a very shy girl to ask for a seperate hair removal tool ! I am really pissed with me :( :( :(

Self Esteem

https://youtu.be/3y9q6MGJQNM

Body Dysmorphia

Hey anyone up?

**Hello**
I am 20 years old, and I am going to this fancy ass business school this year. Sounds like a dream. But there is a problem which is my brain. It is just not bright enough for certain things. I experience odd mental breakdowns due to a certain trigger, which is Mathematics. Ever since elementary school I've been an absolute zero at Mathematics and everything related to it. I know that there will be a part of math related subjects at this business school. And here I am, the one that only got through everything in the past because my teachers felt bad for me and they made it so that I wouldn't drop out of my schools, even though the grade that I really deserve is zero. No I don't say it just to complain about life, but I can't stand the thought of leaving the school in humiliation just because I failed Maths. I can't help but have my eyes tear up whenever I think about maths, it gets worse when I don't understand something, which is always. I try to calm myself down studying in advance before the school year starts, but just understanding the content of the lectures is not good enough since I can't do any practical exercises. I don't want to start to punish myself in some ways whenever I suck at something. But I keep beating myself up. There was a couple times when I caught myself imagining the scenario in which I slept with my hypothetical maths teacher in hopes to stay at the school. Then I thought I am so stupid, my maths teacher wouldn't find me worthy even for that. Hope it made you smile. Anyway, s.o.s.

College

I never feel great anymore a 13 months ago my life changed I lost both my parent's to terminal illnesses.
My mom was my best friend I stayed single for 20 years there financial situation was bad I never dated than when I lost them it destroyed me emotionally.
My whole family life is over now I have no relationship with my siblings over money than covid 19 has changed so many things for me I stay inside alone with no where to escape.
Now I'm having mental health problems I sit and think about compassion with others all the time I'm planning on a relocating to somwhere new and a new line a work where I can be nice to people.

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