Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

So I was seeing this guy who’s super nice and super considerate. Due to his busy schedule however, he told me he wouldn’t be able to give me enough time so we didn’t end up getting together officially. After that…. he made several efforts to make me feel okay and get things back to normal just so we could remain friends but due to my childhood trauma (people leaving me) I managed to make myself believe that he’s gonna leave me. I started acting out and lost him in the end. He told me he was trying everything he could but I made him the bad guy and he hates me now. He also asked me to stay away from him. I realise my mistake and I apologised but he still is adamant on not letting me be his friend anymore. I really want to fix things between us. I don’t know what to do and I really don’t know if he’s gonna give me a second chance because he’s a kind of person who just cuts people off once he faces any issues with them. I’m scared but I really don’t want to let this go just like that. I don’t know what to do.