so i stopped texting him because he don't have time for me anymore

R u ok 
Cuz last night you were really depressed 😅🥲

I'm always depressed! I just got used to living with it

😒😒 don't say anything without knowing what's the story is 

Go to the gym and make yourself better instead of chasing guys

I did the same! And it's the best for you 

Wait for his reaction see what he feel if he really loved you then he will come back for you. 
For now take care ❤️

Friends

i miss him.. not sure if he does. actually I am losing faith, ifeel so vulnerable and I am doubting everything.. i have always been the person who is there for everyone but I never get back.. and so many times I have let that go and forgiven people who don't even deserve it first place, but after being so hurt and vulnerable i let this guy in, he gains my trust, says he wont ever hurt me or leave me, and leave me at a point where I needed him the most, 2 years we were together, I never thought this person would ever hurt me, and the bad part is, its just me suffering, and I still cant hate him, I still pray everyday for him to be happy and get what all he wished for.. but I don't know how to heal.. i have no direction to go to.. i am hating my career path, like i hate it so much, i lost all my friends because i made this guy my world, and now i am here, alone, with no one, not knwong what to do, feeling like running away to a strange place and get a new identity.. is it so hard to love someone back after they put in so much efforts? affter giving everything they have, literally their soul, just to end up like this? why do i end up getting hurt after doing everything right and being v careful that i shouldn't hurt anyone even unintentionally being so good, yet so quick to replace, so quick to forget.. while my expectations is just to love me truly.. and be honest.. i don't need gifts flowers gifts, just them too check up on me if i am okay, to give those hugs when i need it.. to not feel so heavy and alone with a giant hole 

As if it was really that easy for me to get over you.
I just need time.

Memories

IDK why i feel anxious about what happened last week, as if cheated, i feel guilty i feel like the need to tell him about what has happened but what i forget is that i did it for myself, to make myself feel better , it made me feel worse yaar. i feel like puking. i don't know ab i am accountable to him am i answerable to him? i don't think so i broke up because he did not have time for me. ,he did not see me for who i wanted him to he did not appreciate or feared on losing. me. i still want him to fear losing me and maybe this thing will help in it or maybe it will end the things for good. maybe , this is the push we need to end our stint . i still feel as if he wont take me , he wont take me back but dude who is he to take me back . it is i who should be the one who decides if. ishoud go back or not . the control should be in my hands , it is i who decides that does he deserve to be in my life or not . he should fear losing me bhai. its him ho led me to do this i was never ever this person who goes on to hook up with random guys and. moreover, while i was in it i had him in my mind . couldne take my mind off him . i still fear that if i ever tell him this he, never come back but shouldn't i be the one who makes. acall ? why should i givee him this liberty . ?

Exhausted

If someone says they loves you and that person genuinely does but some days he doesn’t even call or text until you do it first and says that he is too busy, then howcome he calls me back and says i was busy and missing you only after me calling him or reminding him.
This is most irritating thing in relationship.

Relationships

So I've been in a relationship for 2.5 years now. at the beginning of the year my boyfriend had to leave for work for 6 months and while he was gone I met a guy and we totally hit it off and became really really good friends. Somewhere in those 6 months my bf and I took a break and me and the other guy started hanging out more and well one thing lead to another. So after the 6 months my bf comes back and we decided to work on things and we've been trying but I can't seem to leave the other guy. I like both of them soo much and I dont want to lose either of them and I know I'm being selfish and a terrible person but I just I love my boyfriend and I care so much about the other guy and ive tried to stop talking to the other guy bu it never goes through buy u I can't break up with my bf

Confusion

My ex boy best friend told me about his childhood friend (who was also our batchmate)when I asked him if he could set me up with someone genuine and nice. He glorified him so much I became interested. He was one of the ‘popular guys’ and my friend told me that he talked to him and he is interested as well so we started talking on snap. He used to talk to me whenever convenient. But he used to give me mixed signals and I got confused but I still liked him due to the stories my friend told me and my others friends encouraged me as well due to his popularity and stuff. I did the mistake of thinking he might be the one because I was at the point where I lacked self-esteem and desperately ‘needed’ someone. One day he talked to me and we s*xted. And suddenly that became the only thing we talked about. As I said he only talked when he wanted to, the conversations happened really less and I kinda lost interest. But then few days after my birthday my friend said he is coming along with the guy to meet me (we were going into quarantine the next day) halfway there he tells me that he dropped my friend off and it’s just him and we hooked
 up for a bit in his car. I didn’t want to do it but I used to be so afraid of him I couldn’t refuse. After a few months , I wanted to organise my school grad party he said he’ll help me and wants to tell me the planning at a local hotel where he booked a room for everyone. Me, him and my other two ex best friends agreed to come but when I reached there nobody was there apart from him and I was d£ad scared so I couldn’t say no. I just wanted it to get over asap. It’s been months now and I have changed a lot but I regret that day so much it haunts me till date . The worst part is I can’t blame him because I didn’t say anything or stood up for myself but I didn’t like any sec of it. 

Harassment

Idk what to feel. Just found out that the guy who I have been talking to on and off has a partner now. He’s really different from the other guys I talked to because in a way, he makes me feel stupid? Like I can never predict his reply. He always caught me by surprise which I find really refreshing. I guess that was what keep me wanting to talk to him all these while. 

 I found out on accident via Instagram bcos her profile was recommended to me. The last time we spoke 2 months ago, he talked about how he will ask me out “when the time is right” and how he wasn’t really looking for a relationship and he doesn’t want to lead me on. It got me thinking how he must have really like this girl to be in a relationship. I have mixed feelings about this whole situation. Maybe I wasn’t good enough or maybe I was the second choice? I know I have no right to feel mad or hurt since he did told me upfront about not wanting to lead me on. On the other hand, I’m glad he found someone. That someone was just not me ☹️ 

One Sided Love

Good, I feel so lonely,  I want to get married but my family is against love marriage but they put a condition that if my bf get his own house and shop they will get me married to him...but on the other hand my bf is constantly busy with stuffs other that earning money, he claims he want to marry me...but he is not acting in the same way....now my parents have stopped talking about my marriage and my bf seems least interested, feels like I am the only one who is bothered enough...I overthink my situation a lot...I really want some time all alone no bf or parents...but I guess I can't escape my current situation, but feels like shit to not have anyone to talk to about this...

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