Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

So I realised something usually I crave to be surrounded by people have plans but today all I wanted to do was reach home and idk enjoy my own company and sing? It feels lonely but i want accept I’m alone … if that makes sense. I want to outgrow the yearning for more friends because my last “best friend “ still have effects on me even though I don’t have any contact. Maybe it’s time to learn to be alone