Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

So i know i might be a little late today
Coming up with words for you today
But trust me when i see you feeling lonely
Nothing but care comes up as feel
Remember when i said you’re not just
A beautiful face for me?
I used to judge people alot before
Only trying to become a better person than i was
But don’t let me fool you
I’m no angel or some nice guy
Who’s trying to make you fall
I used to be the worst person in the room always
Mess up all the friendship and relations always
Made people leave me
Made people ghost me
Made people do things
They never thought could be done
Remember i said i used to say this alot before
I’m the worst guy you could ever meet
That’s because I’m a loner at heart
Keep try to find a place to belong
But deep inside i know it’s just a fake part
Insecurities and anxiety eat me up daily
Trust issues and overthinking keep me up daily
The only time i felt there’s an escape
Is when we talked late at night so openly
When you told me about your past
And when you told me how you feel you’re the worst
Maybe i thought i could relate to you
Cause have i been down that road too
So before you make any other effort
Do read this and tell me what you know
As i said you don’t believe in love
I didn’t used to too
But i never lost hope
I’m not looking for love
Just peace and hope so
Making you happy gained me that so
If only i could meet you in real though
I would have showed you how
Dark eyes and a fake smile
Isn’t that bad a combination
That we both have, you know.
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