So, I have been quite very depressed this month like the worst. because I have a work to do and the deadline is tonight but I haven’t done one of them. I felt like I want to just quit everything just get away for everyone… I wanted to tell my friends about my condition but I never got the gut to tell them or more like I don’t want them to know…
Because I build my image to be a fun, sunshine, innocent person… I don’t want to destroy that image by telling them I have several mental illnesses…
so here I am, holding my tears while talking to my friends, cleaning fresh scars while laughing with my friends… and can’t sleep because of my mind while I tell them I’m doing my project late at night.
hftt… I’m so fake
There is so much going on in today’s world and people are still fighting. Always remember that there is someone on in this planet at a much worse condition than yours okay? It is the story of most of the teens and you’re not being fake. You are just scared to start my friend. Whatever work you have just try and sit for 10 minutes. If you achieve it then treat yourself. Then challenge yourself again to sit for 15 minutes. just keep on adding 5 minutes but not in a single day, gradually!!! And you’ll realize it later how bad cutting yourself is. take out a diary. Write on what’s going wrong and sit and analyse. Plan out things. Work accordingly. You can do it friend. Keep faith, have patience, believe in yourself because you have immense potential and i know you can do it. hop you have a great day ahead:)
Trust me, I went to every app, every stranger, even professionals (online) I got told a lot of ways, and yeah I did it exactly but nothing is really healing me… I mean who can heal someone who already dies inside 8 years ago…
You are not fake but yes, you have build up this fun-loving image of yours which you don’t want to break. It’s fine. It happens with all. But at the same time you should also accept that even fun-loving people have emotional outbursts, which are perfectly normal. Crying or having emotional breakdowns doesn’t make anyone weak. Instead it makes you stronger from within. Being strong does not mean you can’t have weak moments. Instead, being strong means to be strong through these moments. You can share your emotional turmoils with your friends. Afterall friends are not just for merry-making but also for sorrow-sharing. But again…not all friends are worthy of this. Only the ones whom you feel are truly your friends share it with them. There are people out there who fake to be friends and slip away or may be laugh away with one’s sorrows. So beware and share wisely with trusted people. If they are really your friends they won’t judge you; instead would give you a shoulder to rest. Be honest with yourself as well as with your friends. Pour out all your emotions and feelings. You will feel better. Take care.
I actually got a lot of bad experiences in trusting friends… since I was in elementary school until now. Yes, my friends are good for fun but when I told them about this multiple times it’s just didn’t go well as might be they ignore me and told them their story is more worst than my story.
Yes…such are the people who call themselves to be friends but when time comes to show their friendship, they drift apart making excuses. You should not even call them your friends. Life keeps on giving lessons until we understand the lesson. Probably, they aren’t your friends. Or may be you made friends with the wrong ones. Even strangers can be good enough people to have fun and hang-out with but then what’s the difference between them and your friends. Nothing. Both are there with you for fun but none are there when you actually need them. It’s better you realise and accept who are your friends and who aren’t. It’s better to be alone rather than having a bunch of fake people around. Henceforth, choose your friends wisely. Give your bond some time. Don’t rush to befriend anyone. And always Be Yourself. Don’t try to be another person altogether assuming others will like you more. The people who are meant to be in your life will like you the way you are. Friendship is about accepting someone with their flaws. Be your own best friend first until you find one. Speak to oneself if there is no one to listens to you. Loneliness is the only true lover. Accept it if there’s no one else worthy of your love and affection. Take care.
I think u r being just to harsh to urself which is not right why u r hiding things if it’s troubling u and why r u blaming urself for being fake when u hate . I think it’s better to talk about what u feel. Happiness, depression all our emotions and u r a human so it’s very obvious u will have to face good and bad days and I think u have developed a insecurity that ur friends will not understand u even without trying a true friend is always gonna hear u trust me . Just imagine if ur friend share his personal thoughts with u do u gonna hate him or acknowledge it n as being a good friend gonna try ur best to help him just try to understand that what u r doing is not right u call them so why aren’t u treating them like one . We make friends to share happiness and sorrow just try to give them a chance to show u thier warmth for u and Don’t force urself too much to hold it back it only gonna trouble u forever. I hope u get strength to overcome every hurdle and u find a ray of hope to overcome all this. Take care
thanks, I hope I can get through this… it’s just I don’t trust friends or even my family… I just don’t want them to know that I am weak or what… so yeah I got into the bad ways to express myself…
Sharing something doesn’t makes u weak… And yaa may be trust issues is the reason behind u hiding things but u have to overcome that n I hope u can … All the best…
I feel the same way every day. It’s just like we have to do it. It keeps hurting me from inside that I am too uncertain and weak or irresponsible that I pretend. Guess we will find a way soon.
yeah i hope so
