Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

So I have a job but I dnt think this is what I want to do in my life. I am not blaming anyone for it because this I chose for myself. But now that I am almost 2yrs + in this field, I feel this employer employee thing doesn’t work for me and I want to do something which is more happening, something that excites me everyday and I feel happy doing it. I dnt have to make excuses or find reasons to skip it. I have a daughter. I feel I need sometime now to spend with her, relax and think on what is it I want to do ahead. But this thing I am not able to communicate it right with my husband. His perspective is more like, these are some common things everyone faces at the early stages of their life. But after a point u either get used to it or get over it. Or he thinks these are because of my monthly hormone surges! I so badly want to tell him that there exists a class of people who probably don’t necessarily fit into this kind of a system. They probably look at things differently. They too have loans and a family to look after too. But what’s the point trying to save money if u r not happy doing it. U may not be alive to enjoy it also. My mood swings are real bad. It’s taking a toll on my health now and my kid’s too. I had met a doc post delivery wherein she had told me that I showed signs of post partum depression. My husband too was informed abt it. But somehow he thinks it’s not the case with me. He thinks it was just a passing phase because I was home and dnt go to work so I was making all this in my head. I am tired of telling and expressing to him that there is something constantly bothering me and I am not feeling good about it. Since I dnt find a positive support from him, I stopped seeing the doc. I don’t know if things have piled up now and are making me feel worse. But right now, I badly need a break. I dnt feel like sharing it with anyone for fear of being misunderstood. I hope some stranger friend would because I have lost hopes from dear ones!