Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

So here’s a story, as you all know yesterday was Mother’s day, and me living cross country from my mom couldn’t really do anything for her instead I had plans to make sure i spend enough time with her on phone and talk to her, give her my attention and love. Anyways, between our talk yesterday the conversation somehow drifted to what she had cooked for dinner and how i dint want to hear it as i am currently on diet to make sure i loose weight.
Now before i go any further, i know i am fat (thanks to all my childhood bullies and most ex’s) my weight and my looks haven’t always been the best thing about me. And i am completely aware of it (seriously i am not seeking for a pity remark here just stating facts).
However, the when i told her that the diet is making me cranky and miss yummy food my mom told me if i had taken care of my diet earlier I wouldn’t have to go through this (which i agree as she was rightly about it), then she went on and added that me still not been employed after 4 months of completing my master and not being as thin or pretty (fair) as my cousin sister (who recently got married), i have a pretty high demand of wanting to marry someone in their late 20’s and not 30’s probably when asked for my marriage preferences(P. S i am 24), it would be too much of a demand and that if i looked as i am right now maybe no one or maybe just maybe an older ( not shamming anyone here) would eventually settle to marry me.
Now i cut the call immediately after i said ‘then maybe I shouldn’t marry at all’ after hearing this as the call was on video and my dad and sister were also in the same room as my mom.
(I wanted to say a whole lot more but since it was Mother’s day I dint start a fight and i am pretty proud of me for that)
And this isn’t the first time my mom has made me feel ugly about myself, FYI she is very pretty touchwood. But GOD i wish i was the pretty one sometimes instead of her. (i know i am horrible)
Annnnyywwaayyyss, in short, i learnt my lesson - keep conversation short on the next damn Mother’s day