so…. guy said he wasn’t ready for a relationship with me and that he also had a lot of mental health issues he didn’t wanna put on anyone else so we agreed to be just friends … months later he met a girl and is telling me all about how ready he is for her and how he’d date her for sure if she lived closer. it kinda hurts seeing how he’s willing to fly across the country for her but barley even bothered to get to know me lol :| so now i’m distancing myself even though i don’t want to … but idk i feel like if he does get her then obvs she wouldn’t want him to be friends with a girl he wanted to hook up with & be casual with… plus i don’t wanna ruin things for her so… idk idk idk :/ i feel terrible lol & like i’m not enough but i doubt he even realizes or cares idk why he wants me around still. she’s lucky lol. i have nothing against them though i don’t think it’s fair to be angry because they’re happy :/
yeah you’re right but it hurts cause i feel like i wasn’t enough for him lol and it hurts thinking about him with her too cause i wanted it to be me lol :/
he was telling me a day before that he would probably be ready at 55 but loll the next week he’s talking about how ready he is for her. but you’re right!!! he just didn’t want me and that’s ok lol. my worth isn’t defined by his approval but distancing myself from him is hard since we have a pretty deep & strong emotional connection lol
thank you for your kindness ❤️❤️
