So basically I fell in love with this girl recently, quit smoking for her and stuff. So recently she told me she has feelings for my bestfriend who ik for 13+ years. And they both know about it and hid it for 4 months from me before they told me. I ended my friendship with my bestfriend. I told her I love her. She didn't wanna start with me.

I tried my best no one ringing me like her.

Because you are still not over her and trying to find someone who can click with you as she did....but honestly, these things don't go as decided you should try to first vibe in with people and maybe after sometime you may develop feelings for them

You know man knew I was in love with her still he did that.

Doesn't matter who he lost, you shouldn't have lose him for a girl
I believe time will make you realize it...

Ending friendship was a bad decision, remember that girl might go away but your friend will not
Wrong move

Love

I don't know which law is said that , writing down your problems and half the jobs is solved.
I am feeling very low today. Things I have believe in so hardly not turns out the way it should be. I have good friends who understand me very well. But over the time , I feel that isn't working anymore. Obviously when you ask for favor to your friend and you owe a favor to them. I am in stage where i can figure out who is my friend indeed and who is just pretending to be. I let me give you a incident what my friends are doing with me , last night we went out for drink. One of my friend was voice recording in his phone , when I found that he was voice recording me for blackmail purposes. I was talking about one of my friend's ex-girlfriend who was my friend. That clever guy was recording all that.

Anger Issues

When Lady Gaga said on one of her songs:

The part of me that's you will never die
... 
I don't wanna be just a memory, baby, yeah
-Always Remember Us This Way




I felt it raw. Anddddd it always haunt me

Music

the best thing you can do for yourself is stop worrying about the things you cannot control. literally! 

Affirmations

How not to procrastinate?

Exhausted

Looking for my Monica ❤️

Anyone to talk feeling low and bored

Lonely

Relationships are supposed to provide you with peace and security but all they do for me is give me trust issues. Just so exhausted 😫 

Spreading Some Positivity In This Chaos 
LoL from my journal, hope y'all like it 🎀🤍✨-

You are still the same you, but a little bit older. You become a little kinder, you become a person who understands, a person who appreciates the little things in front of you, like how one more day has passed, and you are grateful because you are still given a chance to eat your favorite fruit once again; clementines.

The flavor of clementines brings you to your home. Back when were four, or five, or six, or seventeen, when your mother used to cut apples and peel clementines for you. You slowly understand how it will never be the same. There might be times when you finally become a bigger person, you are still the same person, and you still love clementines, but there are times when you need to peel it by yourself.

You are a bigger person, but you still want a hug from your father, now you want your mother to take a picture of you even more. It's like you forgive them as you realize that we are all and learning to become a bigger person every day 🧿✨

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts