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Anonymous

So a very traumatic event happened with me few days ago which I want to share.

I was in a live in relationship and we had a fight after which he apologised several times and I forgave him.
Next day I had a lot of work in office and we both wfh. So since I had a lot of work I was not able to talk to him which gave him the idea that I am still pissed at him. After few hours he left home then he texted me “it is over for good” for which I replied “are you coming home or not” for which he didn’t reply, after few hours he came back and started shouting at me asking “Tera kya natak hai tu baat kuyu nahi kar rahi” I got really scared I grabbed my phone and I wanted to call someone for help, then he snatched my phone and started beating me, he was not stopping and he was not letting me go out of the room. I struggled a lot and some how managed to go out and get help. I then went to a station where few people stopped seeing me cry I told them what happened they asked me call police. I was scared my whole face was red and I couldn’t hear. I called the police only because I wanted a safe place I didn’t want to register a complaint.

They took me and him to police station they asked me what happened I told them after that they asked me to file a complaint but I said no I told them I don’t want to be with guy and I will stay at my friends place until I find a place of my own.

The police said to my boyfriend “arey ap Bach Gaye, humko toh pata chal Gaya tha ki ye ladko pagal hai.” After knowing this I completely lost my faith in humanity next day when I went to hospital doctor told me that there is hole in right eardrum. I may or may not be able to recover completely from this damage. But the thing that is hurting is the things I got to hear!!
Many who will read this may think that it is somewhere my fault because they don’t know the story of other side, to which I want to ask, I agree that there must be my fault somewhere but beating me to the point where I puncher my eardrum was that fair??? People calling me mad because I asked for help was that fair??? I have lost faith in everything and everyone.

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Anonymous

Ahhhh things like this make me lose faith in humanity too. Girl atleast you were able to step out of this relationship now. You got more things to do. You know what you are capable of. It might take some time to recover from this. And that’s okay. Take your own time to heal. Take it slow. I really think you will get back faster. Hugs.

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Anonymous

Thank you so much for your kind words.

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Anonymous

What about your family? They are aware of this?

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I had to tell me mum but I didn’t tell her the whole truth, this was not the first time he hit me and I also didn’t tell her about my damaged ear. It really hurts me to say this but they are not that supportive. My mum knew him and she also liked him when I was in station my mum call me and told me that he is crying and I should forgive him

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Anonymous

You should take care of yourself now and mainly ears, never ever get back to that Guy

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Anonymous

Thanks for your advice 🙏

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Anonymous

It’s really sad to hear what you have gone through. Always remember God is beside you. If this relationship gets over, it is for your own good. And it’s better late than never. You have a long life to lead ahead. Get your nerves straight. I am sorry for your physical injury now it’s time you step up for yourself. Don’t ever go back into this toxicity. You will have wonders to achieve. May God bless you dear 🩵

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Anonymous

Thank you so much for your kind words! May you have a great life

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Anonymous

Just leave the guy what other solution u want girl? Its as simple as that move on stop over complicating things. Ik it hurts but u need to go through it there is no other option

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Its so evident you are a man

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Anonymous

I didn’t want any solution, I know the I have to leave him and I have left him. I just wanted to share my experience what I have gone through.

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No unfortunately im a girl. Idk how u judged me but i have been through all this before. When there is a little toxicity or doubt its always better to leave. No other choice is there. If u consider u have got booked for a lifetime trauma that u dont deserve. I dont meant to be rude but she asks for help when the solution is very very narrow. Leave him.

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Ok cool

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Behen You are a Strong soul❤️ I’m sorry jo aapke sath hua ye sab but ab aapke as chance hai To Live a Better life🙏🏼,Btw Aapke eardrums me jo problem hui hai wo thik ho jaegi cause mere sath bhi same hua tha and it took 2-3 years to Completely heal🌟, Btw Aapki situation kaisi hai ab?

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Anonymous

It is better now that I am away from that environment. Sorry to hear that you too have to experience the same thing. It is not easy to go through it but I am glad you are okay now. Stay strong.

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I’m so sorry that you had to go through it all. I know how it hurts, firstly from the guy you are in love with, and when other people fail to see your side and judge you wrong even when you’re suffering.
I don’t know what to say or do, how to make things better for you. I am just sorry

I just hope this event won’t turn into a trauma, and you will get out of it soon, and stronger than ever. You are already strong, and this is what these people try to take you down by saying and doing such kind of things. Please don’t let these people get inside of your mind, bussle you and try to make you feel bad about yourself. You aren’t what they think of you.

God bless you, and may you always find the right courage to do what’s right for you.

And I might be wrong, but I feel we have talked before. By chances are you an old user on this platform ?

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Anonymous

I am not a new user here I have posted anonymous confessions before but I am not sure if we have connected before. Anyway, thanks for your kind words it means a lot to me ☺️

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I might be mistaken. I’m sorry

We are all here for you whenever you feel like sharing or talking.

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Anonymous

Spend time with your family try to understand urself more work on Ur progression read hanuman chalisa daily u will surely gonna pas this hard time positively

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Ujjwal @ujjwals

I am sorry for the violence and trauma you faced in the relationship. No matter how worst the situation is beating and violence is not acceptable.

Don’t lose faith in humanity, bas ye situation aisi thi ki you didn’t get right people at that time.

Seems like complex story but I really wonder what made a live in couple to fight like this.

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