Slowly gliding my prose
Over her wet, ravenous soul
Until she opened wide her walls
And let me thrust deep
Inside her beautiful mind.

It’s something else baked with the taste of poem 

I also felt that it is something else in the shape of poetry 

Well i dont have lover actually now but i know how it feels 

Dont know if it is poetry or something else 🤔

Poetry

Remembering that day when we held each other,
under those thousand of stars,
 with a desire in our heart to last forever:)
-p🙂

Love

Hey guys I realised that i haven't actually posted an intro for me so here it is, Hi I am Shona I am 15 years old and I am like really into singing, roller-skating, writing, drawing, gaming and helping people out. I am currently writing like 4 books right now, I am trying to find a singing teacher/vocal coach so i can audition on the voice next year. I am going to be starting a youtube channel  in december with videos of me singing and other things. I have not quite been diagnosed yet but my mental health nurses think I have Adhd, Depression, Anxiety, Anorexia, and Bipolar. I am always open to listen to people of you need to vent. if you need to vent to me my venting email is venttome292@gmail.com and if you are interested in hearing me sing or reading one of my books please email me at ShonaEstell69@gmail.com Thanks for reading and I hope you guys have a great day/night/what ever time it is for you <3

Intro

Suicidal thoughts are all over my mind now and all the time and i believe I have lived my life that's all 

Suicidal Ideation

I closed my eyes and pondered my next move. 
Was I in a dream or what? After two hours, my eyes shot open. I woke up realizing that I fell asleep...... Hahahaa.... 😆

Insomnia

I am new to this city, living alone,  and wasn't feeling mentally well, so just decided to visit a new place. I went to a famous and busy shopping street here, in the middle of the city and nearby a very famous temple and many famous places here. So walking in those streets, I reached in a street, ofc in the Market only, I felt very strange and it was the red light Street. I couldn't feel more uncomfortable and unsafe there. I looked around and people were normal, may used to it, and there were even some shops. Some Ladies were there, like that gangubai movie. I just passed that street and it was the temple there just about 300m away. 
All in all it was A horrible experience. My heart still pounding by all those images circulating infront of me.

Memories

I'm 30 years old now. I turned 30 in August and I am so damn confused. I look back at my early 20s and feel like I was much more optimistic and excited about my life. Nowadays I am too tired. Every relationship feels like a cycle that I just haven't been able to break. Somehow I'm always the bad guy. Breaks my heart to say that I've become bitter. While I keep taking up courses to have a better career, I completely lack focus. And worst of all I started smoking up at 26 and smoking cigarettes at 29. While I quit the green stuff, I am having a hard time giving up cigarettes. I'm afraid I'll become dead inside. My friends try to justify saying that I feel shitty because I have not been  focusing on my health and I have not been eating right and smoking affects my mood and I should start going to the gym routine again, but frankly, I hate the gym and I have no intentions of going back there. Just thinking about exercise makes me feel tired. Slacking at work as well - some days are great and my bosses appreciate. Other days, I'm making too many mistakes and I am scared I'll be fired for some huge screwup someday. While I have amazing friends, I feel like I have no one to talk to about my day. And because I'm overly sensitive, if my friends say something, I feel like my friends don't like/accept me and it makes me feel completely alone in all of this. Of course, this was not an issue in 20s but lately, every comment gets me overthinking about who's really there and who is not. In other words, I am not feeling connected to anyone. If you've been through this and come to the other side, please let me know what worked for you.


Addiction

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3am Thoughts

Kinda missing you maybe our moments.. with you could come back shru

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