Shivering while typing this. This incident happened to me (I am male) and my cousin (female) quite back in our childhood, happened multiple times and have never spoke about it untill now. And, yeah, we both were sexually assaulted by our elder brother, in different occasions, while we were in asleep. That bastard thought that doing things etc to us he would not know, but yes it happened to me multipletimes, and my cousin too which is even more traumatic to her. i have realised in the recent past that what happened to me was wrog and i was denying and did not care about this, and recently two days ago my cousin confessed about it and i went numb. i just dont know what else to say, it is disgusting that that person is leading a happy and dignified life and we are suffering here, and this happened in family, now i see a root cause to all our mental problems, i just dk im so sorry if anyone has become uncomfy just wanted to let it out. thank you for ur love and support.

Harassment

When I was 6-8 ish a guy older 12 ish  he made me have sex with him with no penetration just oral and that, I had no clue what it was that we were doing but he knew exactly what it was. I this sexual assault?

Depression

I'm just-
I've found my elder brother jrking off to me a few times when he thinks I'm asleep but I'm not (I usually don't lock the door, as I'm not allowed to)
and he keeps on saying things and mo@ning
I've seen him even doing that to my pics too in his pc!
I've seen 'it' too and its weird
I was scared at first now I'm just creeped out and traumatizzed 
I can't tell this to my mom because A) she won't believe and then my brother will bully me and B) i dont think she cares and will give a f
idk what to do
I'm 17 he's 23

How the girls will feels when her cousin bro behaves like perverts.


Adulting

I don't know why I am sharing this but I feel like I have kept this to myself for too long and I can't hold it in anymore, this is part of my life...I've never told anyone this before so, yeah.

When I was around 7 my brother started sexually harassing me and my sisters soon that turned into rape. I was very young so I didn't really think anything about it but I still felt something was wrong with it. He continued to rape and sexually harass me and my sisters until he got a scholarship and moved to board school. After a year there he said he had changed but that summer...he harassed and raped my twin sister. Finally, in 2018-2019 my twin sister built up enough courage and told my mom. (around a month before we turned 11)  When my mom figured it out it seemed like she had no reaction so I don't know exactly how she felt. My brother apologized to me and my sisters when I was around 11 and even though I want to believe him...it still feels like there's a possibility he will do it again.

I'm now 12, my family has moved to 6 different houses, and me and my sister to 7 different schools- we are now currently homeschooled and barely allowed outside. My first ever pet died on Saturday my brother has one year left in the boarding school and is coming back to live at my mom's house, CPS has been called on my family three times and I don't have any friends. My older sister constantly body shames me, my twin has started to develop suicidal thoughts and my mom has developed compulsive hoarding. My family now has mandatory family counseling. 

And my father? I haven't seen him in 1/2 months and barely see him 10 days a year.

How am I supposed to get through this?

Confusion

Hi, 
I was sexually abused two years ago. And that night keeps recurring in my head. But recently it has been coming to me a lot lately. I did tell my mom when this thing took place but she did not do anything about it, I told my teacher and she didn't do anything about it, I told my guy friends and they didn't do anything about it. Nobody did anything. A year later I was sexually abused again by somebody else and I didn't tell anyone because I knew nobody would do anything. But for some reason, those two nights keep coming to me. Yesterday I was writing my Maths exam and I couldn't, I started crying midway, people thought because I didn't know the questions but in reality those nights kept coming to me. 
I don't know what to do, how do I stop thinking about those nights. 

Anxiety

So basically I have a huge crush on my brothers friend. And I am actually trying to get over it because I don’t think he likes me in that way and sometimes I get hurt. This is soooo hard because I met him very often, and when we sleep next to each other we hug and sleep , so this all makes it very hard. And the worst part is he is very very close to my cousin sister and I feel he likes her more than me , like in terms of friendship. I know him for more than 7 years and they know each other for less than 2 years , it hurts.  So like I am really trying to forget him but it’s sooo hard. I try ignoring him and inside that’s killing me. I really dont know what to do. 

Crush

How to get rid of my cousin sister, im feeling uncomfortable with her, she keep on sitting on my lap and iam thinking she tempting me, she keep on moving close to me even through i inappropriate touches her, im feeling discomfort when she comes to me, and talking to me, i loves her so much , but her behaviour is different with me. Im feeling shy to tell her, i keeping distance from her but she keep on coming to me, she is married, im getting sexual feelings when is behaving like this with me , i have less control on my feelings , what should i do she keep on getting close to me even i sexual touches her. Don't know what she is thinking

Teenagers

**Mr. What If's**
I'm sure some of you have already  read a little info about my life...
How will they, my family,  accept me if I haven't accept what happened to me 12 years ago? ...

How will they accept that I'm a victim of homophobic rape incident? ...
It sucks whenever it comes to my mind...
Yes I was abused by my older cousin, he is 10 years older than me, and it keeps on getting into my nerves whenever I see his fucking face...
They knew that he was mentally retarded but they do not know that he is only pretending...

I just wanted to kill him...
This should not happened to me...:C


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