She's so cool.. She's so nice

Out of 10 I'll give her 9.

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Aditya Sahu

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Affirmations

I can't fall in love. I like this one girl so much but everytime i think about her all the past memories about my ex.. how badly i was hurt.. come rushing back. I don't think she'll wait for me much longer. I like her very much but I don't think I'm strong enough to go through that again.

Love

So my thing was going from 6 month and now she said her interest is dead on me i mean bro i didn't do anything wrong bro like we had a fight and i didn't have the will to go to her and talk and knowing this she didn't come either (her ego and trying to be cool thing) and instead of coming to talk to me she was ignoring me on purpose and said she lost interest and this feel so bad anything which might help 

Conflict

Hello . Iam in a love with a girl for past two years . She sometimes have an mood swing and stops speaing to me and blocks me . And after three days she starts reaching out to me . This has been repeated for three times in past two years. And now again she tells not to text her and do not speak with her and I tried my best to make her calm and give her a solution but she is not listening to me and tells me not to text and her . She has not blocked me . What should I do ? Should I try to calm her down or should I give her time and go on no contact. We doesn't have any fight between us.

Relationships

So there is this girl that I have a little crush on. Earlier we used to talk everyday, laugh everyday and do all things together. I recently switched jobs and because of which our communication started decreasing. Now she replies to me after 1 or 2 days. Should I just let it go? Since I don't think she is interested anymore in talking to me.
Any thoughts or advice?

Crush

In April I broke up with my girlfriend because I was too scared to admit that I'm having suicidal thoughts. Because I promised her at the begging of our relationship that I will not kill myself, I decided that when I broke up with I would be free to end my life. She was the only reason why I was fighting with my demons. Unfortunately I survived my sucide attempt and I started feeling even worse because I knew that I fucked up and that I hurted her because I was a fucking egoist. 

After a few weeks I finally talked about this with my best friend. I asked her if she knows how my ex is doing. I asked her if they are in touch because I was worried about her. She LIED to me and told me that they don't really text. Maybe one text per week. Well. I believed her. She was always telling me that she all her friendships trough internet weren't really working because she's not that type to text a lot. Well, I believed her. Event tho I was hurt because she was texting me only when she wanted to meet up with me. 

After a few weeks I found out the truth. They're were texting almost 24/7 and my ex was planning on visiting her for few days. 

I was so angry that I texted my friend and told her how I'm feeling about this. She was again lying to me.  She was trying to make me feel bad because I was feeling betrayed. I told her that this is the end of our friendship. She wasn't even trying. 

At that time I felt like everything is falling apart. I lost my two most important people in life. 

At the end of June I texted my ex to explain everything (I wanted to write a letter for her on the day where we started dating). But I found out that she was visiting my ex bff that day. So I texted her with this letter. I told her the truth. I did this because I wanted to kill myself. She said that she understands, that she wants to help me. She told me that she loves me and she want to try again. 

After that we stopped texting. But on a group chat where I was, my ex, my ex bff and a few other people the two of them were 24/7 trying to make me feel even worse. I was crying every day and every night because I was so tired of this. 

A few days ago my ex bff visited my ex gf. They were posting photos together. Then I found out that they're together. 

Since that day I started overeating, crying most of my time and not being able to do anything. Last Saturday I tried to kms again. It's Wednesday and I'm slowly losing myself. I just can't. I just want this pain to stop. I'm alone. I don't have anyone. I'm so scared. I want to end my life but I'm so fucking scared . 

Suicidal Ideation

I was in relationship with a girl and jt was the best but I made up a fake story of not having parents my father died in army and mom when I was born because my ex had no parents and she got sympathy and I wanted same from my gf....... But later she found out truth and ik she knows the truth and won't ask me and I feel guilt for making this mess.... Now we broke up but she was love of my life I really want her and idk wt to do to make her mine 

Frustration

Hey everyone
A girl who I've been dating for over a month just broke up with my 5 days ago. And honestly it's been hard on me. I felt I was denial for the first 2 day but recently it been hurting me emotionally. The reason why she broke up with me is because she had a relationship 5 years ago which she isn't over with and she felt that it seemed unfair to me if I'm ready to start a relationship and she isn't. She said thought about us alot, and even spent the night at her friend's house talking about us. She said I was a really sweet guy but felt bad because she didn't want it to seem she was leading me on any longer. She told me its okay to cut off all communication with her but I refused since there was really no bad blood between us, and I knew it was tough conversation for her to have since her relationship lasted for years and that breakup was so bad she had to go to the hospital. So we decided to stay friends. I texted her yesterday and we had a really good conversation but the reality is we're not together anymore. I really like this girl, I keep having thoughts if it was my fault, is there a possibility we can get back together, it would really hurt me if I saw her with someone else and what's next? Honestly this was my first relationship and it opened up alot insecurities I bottled up in the past, I'm still a virgin at 26, I'm not confident about my height I'm 5'2, I don't have a car and still live with my parents. To me I've always kinda believed if it happens it happens, I've never prioritize chasing after anyone due to my insecurities. I try to distracted my self by watching movies or try to keep my self busy but I just feel unmotivated, unsatisfied with my life, confused and so lost.

So I broke up 4 years ago,

I did all a gentleman would do in his relationship giving space and not mingling both our personal lifes into each other,
never questioned her about her friends

Then realise she was cheating on me for two months and now I have this bad thing like finding reason to hate every girl I start liking thinking she would do same. 

And to add it up she used to be mentally and emotionally abusive. 

I know I can be the best man out their but every time I go out part of me says the other person is same would cheat on you.
Plus 
The college I attend women I meet they are like man you are dark skinned why a girl would ever date you.
I tried that ignoring this but in real world when I tried this was true. 
Part of me be like fuck it and
Part of me get affected, 
I don't know how to handle this. 

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