Seeing a man cry and expressing how much he fucked up makes you think he can change

The next day

Does the opposite of what he expressed and goes back to his old asshole self

One Sided Love

Letting you go is hard but it's a must 💪😊

Adulting

I´m ripping my nails off, blood is on the floor. I don't think this is a phase anymore..?

Anxiety

Describe your experience of falling in love 

3am Thoughts

tired.
Very... tired. 
Constantly feel like I'm being used and then ignored by my immediate family. 
Feeling alone. 
Scared of talking too much about my feelings. I feel even now that this place isn't safe for me to vent. I can't help it, it's ingrained in my psyche. Like somehow, the wrong people will find out the things I say and I'll just be punished for revealing how I really feel. 
Is it safe for me to be here, to talk about what's going on? It's so scary trying to piece together how I'm feeling, where my jumbled thoughts are going. 
Right now, I work a dead end job, one of three in the past two years. Everywhere I go I feel like I'll collapse of exhaustion. I work hard, but they take advantage of my kindness and work ethic and run me til I want to drop. I like them, but I feel like I'm constantly trying to please everyone and it's becoming too much. 
My mother is the core of my self-issues. I love her as well, but I know she has done bad things and struggled to be a parent. My brother and I deserved better. 
I am in a constant battle of low self-esteem and nearly no confidence. I try and try but I never feel like I can catch on. My friends are progressing through their lives, but I'm 23 and still living at home struggling to make ends meet, and I feel like a failure. 
I don't even know where to start. 

Venting time :-

Hello again (jee dropper), study wise getting better alot , but still now confused for confessing the girl becuz she's from.sainik school so u can think that things can be different , thought that if 19th india wins will confess otherwise let's see cuz like it's been 3 months the crush feeling is not going maybe she's the one or again i am doing chutipanti who knows, nda prep is also going good academic wise good but other aspects not good , had a good physique once now don't wanna go gym z had an argument with mother too hyper , hammered myself with an Eiffel tower artistic now , I don't like she arguing with me told.her to ignore me if I get angry but now she won't talk I don't care , it's afucked my parents should take a divorce nd I wana go live in a pg for god's sake + masterbating is in control but i can't stop it like in 3 4 days once it's happening but i want to be free of it I can't , got alot of frends but don't know with whom should I share so here I am .
If you came till here thank you 🙏🏼

I'm really stressing out..way tooo muchhhhh..uugghhhhh...😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😮‍💨😮‍💨i just need a relief....🕊️🤯..can anyone help me with this..🥵🥴!

Stress

I used to not be affected by being single so much as I am right now, I have had dates and been in a relationship, I am just 24 , I have yet to find my dream job but somehow I feel immense pressure for 'finding someone or the one'. Does anyone else feel that ? Is it an age thing? Or fomo cause everyone seems to be either in a relationship or settling down around me. Or is it just loneliness? What is the reason for you ? And what do you do about it ?  

Hello ..i want to share that living with my family at the moment is very triggering in various times. i am trying really hard but with so much trauma, denial, gaslighting from both my parents, many a times, many, many a times i try to put my self in a good mod and am successful but then some or the other thing happens. While i can't wait to move out, with or without my partner, heal(a journey), right now i was having a peaceful good morning and my dadi said that' a mom can never abuse her child'. It really triggered me how both my parents till date have crazily time n again abused me so much in all ways and much beyond. As i continued to keep my mind occuipoied but it has atriggered a loop of flashbacks, and viscious thoughts and since 15 min it's all coming back to me... i just hope i am able to get over it, bcoz it feels lonely, scary and crazy now... to add to it, my dad just walked in..i have so much agony, hatred, mistrust and disgust for him, and his complacency and all; his presence of 5 min triggered me so much( tho i didn't react, but just got very uncomfortable)... Right now, i feel very scared....that will i ever be able to live and be happy, away from all this and accept it all in my life...just ho[ing for now my ood becomes better and i enjoy n live life away from all this..

My brother- a 25 yr old being toottally immature ....like epitome of immaturity and it is as triggering as ever. Just like when i'm watching and enjoying a movie, they one by one disrupt it and it has only led to a string of triggers thoughts and memories now...

i am also comparing myself to my some friends who are 10 yrs elders to me single mothers but so hard working yet enjoy n chill in life despite their trauma and agony, and have chose to maintain boundaries with their triggering or depressed family members and others, and enjoy n live their life irrespective.  i aspire to be like them, be like me and get away from my crazy family..and only dream that someday i'll be living n chilling just like them, away from them. I HOPE. SOMEDAY I'LL FORGIVE MYSELF FOR NOT HAVING ENOUGH COURAGE EARLIER, AND ENJOYING THEN AND BE AT PEACE THEN...ALL MY FAMILY SO TRIGGERING RIGHT NOW..I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE..WAITING TO GET OUT

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