Saw her after 3 months at the market place...she looked miserable...we broke up sometime back...i had a rush in my heart to go and hug her or just talk to her...but then the pain came back that i went through for a long time and i didn't go...i have been soo torn ever since...i don't wanna go back to her now but i do feel sad.
Is it normal? Idk..

Haha..u know how someone looks when you actually know then for a long time and we all are here to get our lives back...soo if you have a life why are you here huh

My best guess is to talk shit.. nevertheless thank you for your useless thoughts.

3am Thoughts

Today I felt something different. The girl which I talked about on last post, she tried to get in touch with me but i straight away ignored her. She even tried to come in front of me but still I ignored. 
My heart was not stopping me from talking to her but i controlled my emotions. Though I am in love with her and i can't express it to her because I don't wanna lose my respect. I don't know how to survive in this situation. She always comes in front of me and i ignore her. I still feel guilty on how I treated her and talked to her rude but also I can't even say sorry. 
Please suggest what to do. 


Frustration

Met my ex for her birthday,  even hooked up with her. But she feels very different and distant now. I went there with a hope to get back but I think she's moved on. It hurts bad....... What do I do now? My only hope of happiness that I had,  has gone too. 

There is this girl i am in love with.... i cant say that its love becoz.. i have abandonment issues... small display of caring gets me hooked... plus i have been mistreated a lot by my ex crushes.. soo rejections were constant!! To cope up with these issues... i somehow get attracted to one or more girls at the same time... for supposedly "backup plans" but the only thing that differed in this was the intensity...... intensity of love varied alot..
The point im trying to make is... i loke this girl alot... but she has soo many complex and compelling ideas... which are both "not same as mine" and "OMG moments" which basically impresses me alot!! She never had to struggle with boys!! Everyone was and is behind her.... she had an ex.. but that guy is soo close to her that even thier parents know each other and now they casually meet... she believes that she has low eq(emotional quotient) less emo types... soo she used to have casual relationships!! Ab the point is... idk if she is just flirting with me or if she really likes me... 



Girls help me out... what the fuck goes through ur brain... idk if i should pursue this or keep this as a good friendship 

Relationships

I on a break with my gf since 18 of may it ends on the 19th of may im so afraid what would happen after I love her so much this timeout was to give her space bc shes super stressed about many things. 

Girlfriend

Hello my name is Alex. I'm here to talk about a break up I had before 3 days and I need some solutions. I was missing from my town for 4 years when I came back I saw a girl that i liked here past then and brought me back for  some feelings. I texted here and she responded so we start dating. Everything was Okey that girl was I'm love for me for 6 Years even thought we never even kissed in the past. She had 2 years relationship with a guy but never finished I mean had sex. I was her first guy she was hard in love with me. We dated for 6 weeks and I cheated on her. The same moment I did that I regret it and started chasing her for 3 weeks I did crazy stuff sending her flowers to her job to her place calling her searching her etc... she forgave me and we gave a new start before 2 weeks. She was Okey I mean she even told me that she love me did many stuff like I did for her. But since Monday she changed I mean she was very cold we talked and she said she feels like she is cold doesn't know what she want . She asked 5 days not to talk to see if she has feelings about me because she was feeling that I pressure her. We broke up and she told me she loves me but wanna move on. I know she is insecure about her self I know she loves me I wanna ask the girls here what I can do any tips like give her time tect her like friend in some time so I get her back


Breakup

She was my best friend. We spent all the time together. From the mole on her right arm to my dogbite in my left leg, we knew everything about each other. Even though we knew each other only for 1 year, our bond was very special. Infact if for some reason we would not be able to talk even for 1 day, it would hurt too much. I still remember that on 18th August she was angry and did not talk to me the whole day, and then I wrote a poetry for her just because I missed her so much. (BTW, she loved the poem and even wrote it in her personal diary).

But the day she went on a date with Ayushman, I was not being able to be happy for her, even though I wanted to. She was so special and important for me that I realised that I had feelings for her. But I did not want this to happen, I never wanted to cheat her this way. I could not take this very well, so I started avoiding her. Even though she asked me a lot about her, I just ignored her and even became a little rude. Slowly she stopped messaging me and did not ask about me. It's been more than 1 month since we last talked to each other. I don't know if this was the right thing to do or not. But I know that she is still special for me, I still miss her. Every night before going to sleep I read our old chats and smile and cry at the same time. I don't even know what to say anyone or what to do, I just know that I hurt myself everyday and I don't want to do it anymore. 



Depression

Can somebody listen to situation and tell me what to do like I'm confused and want to overreact. (It's related to female best friend)

Friends

She proposed me . I did not love initially but gradually fell in love with her. We had a great connection, memory, bonding. I gave her freedom, liberty as I had 99.9 percent trust on her. I informed my family about her. But she cheated on me after 3 years . I tried and convinced a lot not to do this. 4-5 months I cried with her , persuaded her but in vain. Then I quit but always had a soft corner for her till today. Even her relationship with new guy also didn't last for 3 month. After 1 year she talked with me and said sorry for all. We used to talk once or twice a month as just friend.but couldn't talk like before with same feelings and emotion as I assume she doesn't have love for me. But after 1 yr she suddenly tells that she wanna marry me and wants to be with me and also has informed her family regarding this and asks my view.  I still want her but her previous version as I feel that she couldn't give me love as before she used to. I feel she has been changed and not crazy as I m or she was before in our relationship. I just wish everything would be normal as before but it seems difficult. What should I do. Should I accept her or move on ? 

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