Samhjh nhi ata log aise q hote, hum jitna sincerity aur loyalty se Firendship nibhane ki koshish karte hain wo humein uss se bhi Ziyada dissappoint karte hain, hamare liye problem creat karna, success se jealous hona let down karwana dosti mein bhala koi aise kaise kar sakta hai
Hum saath kamiyabi hasil karne ka sonche toh samne wale ki sonch ase k sirf wo hi kamiyab rahe koi aur nahi ye bhi bhala kaisi dosti hui 

Mujhe b aisa hi feel hota hai but wo bolte hai wo mere dost hai mujhe jab b zarurat hogi saath honge, but unki in batoon se bahoot dafa hurt hui hun Mein kayii dafa toh akele mein royi b hun. Bahoot pata nhi aise dost q mile mujhe 😔

Don't trust people words so easily bolte kuch hai krte kuch hai 

Fatima Muhammad

Friends

can anyone suggest a mental consolation?

Depression

It hurts to see her move on. To see her do so much better in life and make so much more money. It hurts more cause you feel shitty about yourself for feeling this way. 

So... I tend to feel variety of emotions, maybe too deeply. In simpler words, as phrased by people I am "dramatic". 
My mum asked me to keep my emotions in check, because my default setting is feeling things and showing them as it is.
When I did that she said why can't I act being happy and smile more, I ruin her and house's atmosphere by being grumpy in the morning. 
When I started smiling first thing the morning, regardless of nightmares or sleepless nights her mood was better. But it didn't last long...
Then a day came when I smiled too much and displayed too much happiness, because I was genuinely happy, she scolded me and said "Why are you being so happy? Can't you see your relatives are now talking only about you? Stop showing so much emotions"
I swelled up and went to my room. She then came into my room after a while and said " Now I can't even say anything to you because you get hurt soo easily. You and you feelings!"
I didn't cry because she said to not show emotions but because she was asking me to change myself, without even trying to understand how I feel and even assuming things on her own. Because she said she can't communicate with me anymore but she isn't even listening to me.
I have wronged my parents in many ways  if I can't even keep my emotions in check then am I not just a useless trash?

Failure

My guy bestfriend was observing fast. He didn't have anything to eat or drink whole day and by the end of the day he was having a bad headache. It was his birthday so I went to wish him. He told me about the headache and I offered to give him an oil massage and felt that he jyst don't want to give me trouble so I said, you've observed fast the least I can do is this.I may have said it 2-3 times because I pnly thought he didn't wanna trouble me and I wanted to let him kmow that this wasn't trouble at all. He took this as wrongly and judges me. Now I feel guilty and think I should know my boundaries and that was very weird and immature of me. Why am I so dumb😭

Frustration

Yeah. It's on. I'm emailing Jeevan Kang with my pitch dock and I've already emailed the vfx guys to model the suit for Pavitr. Day 0 has started towards our dream. And Day 90 will be the launch of our crowdfunding campaign. It's becoming a reality out here in India. 🕸️🕷️

Personal Growth

the sucky part is when you feel like your not even a relationship even though you're in one

Conflict

The realest gets treated the worst but we win in the end i promise.

3am Thoughts

I have almost 4 month's pending lectures infront of me. I know that it is only me who has to get up and work but somehow i dont know why i keep procrastinating. i know wevrything that i have to be practical, have to make a schedule and follow it but somehow i am unable to do it. i have almost negligible social life, my family thinks that im covering my lecture backlog in my room the whole day but in reality im just scrolling through insta, youtube or netflix. the guilt is eating me up but i have no idea as to why i have no energy to be able to open my books. i have tried limiting my phone usage- then i either sleep or overthink fake scenarios. i have tried listening to motivational podcasts but i end up being motivated for only an hour or so. i have tried maintaining a to-do list but the tasks only pile up making me more anxious and zero results. on some days i wake up with anxiety or im unable to sleep because of so much of pending work but then i am not able to sit and do it because i feel so anxious. even right now, while writing this i feel so guilty that i should work instead. i feel ashamed of myself and i was never like this. i was an average student but atleast i made an effort but in the past few months it is like ive given up on everything and i hate this feeling. i have only a few friends but they are also not there or available when i feel like talking and then i feel that i am being a burden or a pile on always making the first move to talk to them. it is like if i dont call or message, they almost forget about my existence and i absolutely hate that feeling. also whenever they enquire (if they do, very rarely) about my pending work i feel ashamed to tell them and say that i have only one month's backlog left. also, lately i've been feeling so insecure that there is no one in my life who treats me as a priority, that im always a second or even third option to people and my bestfriend and i are drifting apart and she's becoming more close to others and im not the jealous type but i dont know how to handle all these emotions and ive talked to her about this for quite a few times but she said no its normal and i dont feel that way and neither do i want to seem needy or irritating by poking her again and again. i have tried everything to keep myself motivated and positive and i know that i will only suffer the consequences but i just cant seem to be back on track. 

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