Recently realised that Iโve high anxietyโฆ
I never knew that I was anxious every single minuteโฆidkโฆI mean Iโve been speaking shit since few hoursโฆidk whatโs happeningโฆIโm freaking outโฆmaybe because Iโve a seminar tomorrowโฆbut idk out of orderโฆ
This time when I joined the collegeโฆI was all enthuastic and wanted to do wondersโฆI wanted to be betterโฆI wanted to interact with peopleโฆI wanted to study smartโฆI wanted to be the best version I ever wasโฆbut graduallyโฆI gave up unknowinglyโฆI didnโt want to tryโฆI was all doneโฆI try to motivate myself but that doesnโt seem to work for longโฆI wonder how people stay so persistentโฆit flatters me for realโฆits hardโฆhatsoff to such peopleโฆI chose this course out of my own interest and now I feel tired and unenthusiasticโฆIโm always depressed,anxious and unsatisfiedโฆI wanted to come out of my comfort zone,talk to people but nah! Again I went back to that introverted me stage. I feel likeโฆeveryone around me is a group and I stand aloneโฆthis happens to me everytime I try to get betterโฆeverytime someone with say shit about me that somehow will reach me and I withdraw myself from everythingโฆI know I shouldnโt do thatโฆI shouldnโt be affected by peopleโs wordsโฆbut it so happens that I canโt controlโฆI d k what Iโm gonna doโฆGod alone knows