Recently I have been feeling numbnessâŠand today I donât feel sad or happyâŠmy chest just feels heavy. All I can feel is the heaviness of my chest, I also have a lot of headachesâŠwhich I hate. I also notice that I have been feeling very lazy and havenât done any hw either, I get stressed because the homework is hard so I donât do it, but I also get stressed because I donât do it, I know the deadline will end soonâŠI get stressed either way if I do or donât do it.
This is affecting my grades, in English class, my B dropped to an FâŠin math I had a B and now a C, the thing is itâs really affecting my grades and I canât seem to find a way to feel better. Someone already suggested me to meditate and I did but that didnât work, another person told me to journal but it doesnât help either way.
And, I keep having more and more thoughts about suicide, I know myself enough to know that I wouldnât do such a thing to hurt my family so I do cut more than before. I crave to feel something so I cut because I donât care if itâs painâŠI just want to feel something that is not numb.
Jafar Abbas @jafarabbas33
Hi! I really canât imagine what you are going through. These are tough times. Even I sometimes think of self mutilation. Do you know how I got to know about this site? I was searching for suicide helpline. Believe me we are in this together. After joining this site, I felt better to share my thoughts and get pretty kind responses. My pre-boards starts tomorrow and I have almost no preparation. But we need to, You need to take one step at a time. OK?
Donât look at what you want to achieve all at once. Take little steps. And be super comfortable and accept that you canât do it all at once or maybe you canât do it at all in such a short period of time. And thatâs perfectly fine. We are going through tough times amigo! Chill! Take little steps and remember that âYou canât do it all at onceâ even small steps helpsđ
Have an amazing life! We are here for you!
Thank youâŁïž I hope the best for you too.
Jafar Abbas @jafarabbas33
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