Really, i m feel that should have one understanding n mature female friend with whom I can chatt, talk, hangout and share my day day stuffs

Girlfriend

I'm preparing for competitive exams but I don't know why I study for 1 month and I'm at my best. I'm not studying at all and I don't feel like studying. And when I do study it's like one day it's good but another day I don't want to. 
How do I overcome this. I feel guilty for not studying but even then I'm not studying and it is very important for me to focus.
What should I do?

Stress

Finally its raining here😭😭😭it feels so nice when you waited for something for so long and it comes all of a sudden..the happiness of it and the peace of having it after a long time is uncountable...whatever I'm just letting out my emotions don't mind me😭😭😭😭

Happy

Hi Iam new here hi Iam new here 

Adoption

Feels good under the moon 

3am Thoughts

What does success mean to you?

Success

feel too much alone 
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I done bachelor of dental surgery but my college was not so good. it was a government college but the academics were worst. Teachers always demotivated us in our own field,after college I just began to hate my field bacause even my parents did not motivated me bacause my elder sister is a medical doctor and doing job.Than I thought to give upsc civil service exam I wanted to change people's perspective towards me and to make society more better for women girls children but in my internship my father died. My younger brother who has a abusive type of personality he is a spoiled child of my parents he started to taunt me everyday that you are overaged, youare fooling others for upsc exam, youare unemployed useless, youcant even crack medical exam thats why you had to do bds etc. He is a little pscychopath type he always says that you will take all the money of home to your husband because you are unemloyed. I became very mentally disturbed listening to him everyday he himself did eng. And now is in home and he says that he feel demotivated when see me useless at home.
I became very mentally disturbed that i couldnt studied properly for upsc. He made me feel useless . And even if i dont listen to him he says the things that hurts me very personally. Now my elder sister suggested me to go to any hostel i shifted to a pg hostel now I an feeling very relieved for not hearing his voice from one month. But sometime I feel very lonely here also.I feel like I have no one to care about me. Or why god didnt gave me a normal life with normal family. 

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