Really, i m feel that should have one understanding n mature female friend with whom I can chatt, talk, hangout and share my day day stuffs

Girlfriend

It's been so long since heartbreak but now I dont like the idea of having someone around me. Who closes the window midnight and make me feel well.

3am Thoughts

Wondering, how much a new entrant will be acceptable here. Have loads to pen down, yet the space feels small. I guess, I'll better get exploring first.

I m having mixed emotions 
a boy  whom i really dont know came to my colony for rent ,i didnt noticed him for many months . suddenly on day in a summer Evening i saw him and he saw me i ignored it completely as i was not  interested in  anyone tht time . Then i saw him coming out every Evening and strated noticing me for 2weeks i thought this is nothings but than from the 3rd week i also started noticing him . many days passed he keeps staring at me but he never came to tell me anything i dont know what is this ....plzz can anyone explain me what thought going on inside his head

I m feeling hell anxious after a long time...it slowly built Iup and now I am unable to sleep.
Today net exam date came out..i have cleared the net in psychology but still, this journey is taking a lot of time..i don't know if I want to join ohd or not...i don't know..I'm also taking supervision to take clients..but everything i feel I am not doing enough....the whole day passes me doing nothing...only scrolling and building castles in the air and feeling nothing but just more critical of myself and doubtful and guilty....oc not being and not doing enough...

I applied for assistant professor post too...but didn't hear back from them 
I am feeling anxious hell anxioussss

Anxiety

I am feelings like the my life is full of tragedy when I think that this the moment for which I was waiting for something worst come along.

I am tired of this shit!!

Galla gallan vich deve
Dil mera todh ve
Supne na devi mere
Hanjuan ch rodh ve...

Russeya na kar sohneya
Kitte kaleyan na rona payi jave...

https://youtu.be/Ksu_ftuL20U

Music

Feeling lost.. can't study at all in this 2nd pandemic wave, as many friends have covid and are fighting for life. Can't study at all..... have an important exam to crack... don't know what to do... all mental peace has gone... How shall I gain my stability back??

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