Realised it long ago , but thought to share it here, the school friend who I thought my best friend from my side  , the same she doesn't feel like I  am her best friend , it hurts but yes from my side it was pure and whole  and it was long ago after that i didn't spoke with ...

Realised she is not my best friend so .....and it was not reciprocated from her side the way I used to...

Life

What is more important for you - friendship or love? 

Friends

 recently, I have gone into the phase where I am really reflecting on myself, evolving and learning new days, two weeks ago I was really really sad because I realized I don't have a lot of friends to talk to however I have slowly learnt that you don't necessarily need a large group of friends I have select two really good and close friends and I really adore them. I am changing and I am learning and I am satisfied with the people I have. But somewhere I have this feeling sometimes that I am kinda left out, I know some people from school, they follow me on Instagram and it is very casual but there is this girl who was very close to me last year but we have drifted apart this year, she has changed and ngl she has picked a few bad habits which I why I avoid her company she is very popular and a very so-called ''cool'' kid. she was nice to me but since the past few months she has not talked to me when I try to initiate a convo she just leaves me on seen which is why I feel bad sometimes since it is coming from a person who at a point of time was close to me. she keeps connections with my other friends but she does not talk to only me that often. I think that is because I have outgrown her or maybe I am not so sure

Is the following happened to anyone:

She will complain when you hang out with your friends(including girls) and enjoy life. Then again she will do the same and yet justify it with arguments and blame on trust issues!?.. 

Relationships

So there's a girl who I met about 2 years ago. We became very good friends and one day she tells me she loves me 🙌 even tho i didn't like her that way i had to get in a relationship with her because I didn't want to lose her🙌 3 months into the relationship she ends things with me yet she comes back to me after a month saying she wants to be my friend 🙌 even tho she was just a "friend" i decide to move cities for her on her insistence. She used to fight and create drama when ever I got close to another girl🙌 even now she acts weird and talks weird when i talk about dating other girls. I had to get rid off many female friends because she didn't like it even tho we were just friends. I had to cut off a girl with whom I was about to start a new relationship because my "friend" wasn't comfortable with me dating other people And now out of nowhere she decides to start dating other people 🙌😂 how stupid am i moving cities for her cutting off friends for her not dating anyone else for her 🙌🫢

Breakup

Friendship is a soul that lives in two bodies.

I am a student who is preparing for entrance exam. I got decent marks in first attempt but failed to get college. I decided to take drop and appear again for it. But all of my friends who got college now left me. I only got my female bestie with me. With failure and everyone leaving me I am starting to self doubt myself. I am having thought that might my bestie will also leave me. I will always get replaced in everyone lives. 
This is getting heavy because the people who I thought were the best people in my life left me in my difficult phase . I have my bestie but I feel like I can't disturb her. She has got her own studies and responsibilities. I don't know what to do. 
I just want to write it down. Thanks for listening me😊. 

Boss, friendship is not something decided in one day, but it's something formed before you know it.

This sounds really stupid but is it normal to suddenly hate your best friend for years?

I'm starting to hate her more and more each day because since elementary school grade 5, I liked a guy, he was talking to me and she actually went in-between us and started talking to me about something else. That's where I started hated her until now (grade 9 or what you would call secondary 3). I think she's kind of too overprotective, she would always break the conversations I have with other classmates and she keeps on following me everywhere I go and it's literally very irritating to me. Like, I need space from her but she keeps on following me.
Yesterday was when I started to hate her in my mind. She got almost the same spectacles, tied her hair exactly how I would tie and she wore the exact same mask as me. Istg she knows that someone copying anything about me pisses me off and she still did it anyways.
I hated it whenever someone calls me but it was my best friend, like wtf we look so different
Then today she still wore the same exact things and she 'secretly' follow me everywhere I go to monitor what I do and how I do things and she would do the same things (I saw her cause she was being so obv). I personally think this is getting ridiculous.  I think she's just trying to gain the same amount of attention I normally get and its purely disgusting to me.
The small little gestures and small dances she would do to get attention from people is literally cringey. She would LITERALLY act cute to people and it would trigger my fight or flight mode, and would make me wanna hate her even more.











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