Realised it long ago , but thought to share it here, the school friend who I thought my best friend from my side  , the same she doesn't feel like I  am her best friend , it hurts but yes from my side it was pure and whole  and it was long ago after that i didn't spoke with ...

Realised she is not my best friend so .....and it was not reciprocated from her side the way I used to...

Life

i had a best friend, we were friends since last 2 years and maximum time we spent in lockdown so this is basically long distant friendship! she is so good and we used to share every single thing, approx. 3 months ago we started getting differences and didn’t got much of to solve it , it got worst and we stopped talking, she abused me, insulted me and left me for like literally no genuine reason! few days ago she came back, though she was not expecting me to talk this good to her but i can’t act bad for her, so we decided that we’ll not become friends again but we’ll just be there and talk and like i just feel so good, here is no expectations, no responsibilities and like we still talk about everything, everyone and it is so good now
i do lost my some parts in all this like i stopped trusting people, stopped making friends, stepped into some weird things but now i am happy, really :)

Friends

Hello my friends 
Need some suggestions regarding friendship and maturity

A girl insult me daily on a group chat and then apologize to me personally.
She always says she will not do this again etc etc
What should i do
Should i insult her in the group or just ignore her
The group is very important for me and i can't leave the group
Please help 

Anxiety

My best friend of 5 years betrayed me. I helped her in every possible way when she left her home I gave her everything she needed. I was not realising that she was financially abusing me. She lied to me all the time. She made a fool out of me and my cousin. She said she was clean but she was lying to me the whole time. She has done the same thing with other people too. She borrowed money from my cousin brother also. I paid for her Masters fees because I feel everyone deserve a chance to study. It’s not just about the financial abuse, it’s about lying, betrayal, hurt, emotional abuse. She made excuses of mental health to use me and other people. I don’t know how to get over this. I feel angry, hurt and confused. I go out of my way to help people but people like my friend is running this kind behaviour of me. Just needed to vent out. 

What are your thoughts on betryal in friendship?

Insomnia

My childhood was fun especially when I spend time playing something with my friend. We will be roaming around together having fun talk...sometime chatting with her family but when we start to grew up we are not as close as before anymore... She live in another state.. She only came back when there's a long holiday or important thing.. Even though she came back she rarely ask me to hangout with her now... She will start ask to hangout a few days before she go back.. Some people even thought we were sibling sometime but now... I feel so lonely without her sometime.... Now there's pandemic our friendship was worse than ever.. Sometime I think she became friend just because of our family 

When I went to Meredith‘s office earlier today, the Friend that was with me was only talking with her. But when my friend and I were just about to leave Meredith‘s office, I realize that she wanted to say something to me. But we couldn’t exchange a word Because of the no contact order. However, what hurt me the most,  was that she was just standing there, as though she was reading my mind. Then, when she saw that my friend and I were gone down the hallway, she went back into her office and shut her door. I couldn’t help feeling sorry for her. She waited until we were far away from her office so that she could shut her door. But in my mind, I knew that she was trying to tell me something. But my friend doesn’t know anything about the situation I have with Meredith because that is something very personal and I don’t feel comfortable sharing with everybody. So we just acted like nothing happened. ￼￼￼￼￼￼ although she did smiled at my friend and I. But I feel extremely bad for her. Because I have a strong connection with her, I am able to feel her feelings, and I can even feel what she is thinking.  Poor Meredith. ￼￼￼

Depression

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