Putting out all my worries here, one by one.
I recently lost one of my close relatives to COVID, but in actual due to medical negligence from the Hospitalâs side. He had two little daughters who are my closest cousins(16 & 7 yrs old) and the younger one doesnât even know that her father died, we donât even know how to tell her. This has left a huge void in our lives.
Some weeks ago, my boyfriend of the past 2 years, broke up with me citing some occurrences of frequent misunderstandings between both of us, and told that the relationship cannot be mended anymore. I have been feeling lonely since then, even though he told that he feels the same, but after the break up he has been constantly working hard and taking steps to reach his life goals, but I am just lying lazily, and doing nothing even if I want to.
I donât have many friends to share my worries with, people judge and gossip about me with other people when I start sharing my problems with them, and people humiliate me for all the past mistakes I have committed, this takes a toll on my mental health.
I have set goals for life but even if I want to study for them, I am procrastinating and just pushing the goalpost farther and farther, I wish to focus on my studies, and actively âlearn thingsâ instead of just studying normally or studying for exams. I want to formulate a daily timetable, but I am unable to do so.
I get anxious very often, anxious when thereâs a new thing coming up, anything like an exam or something, I just wish I could be less anxious and fearful.
Thatâs all.
