Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

PS. I DON’T WANT ANY ADVICE/GYAAN OR SOLUTIONS OR JUDGEMENTS…want to be heard, seen and understood. - with empathy, sympathy and lots of compassion n warmth <3

Hey

idk i hope the relevant people see this…but i’ve been doing a lot of inner child work, healing, meditation, self care, eating n doing right…recouping from a big physical and mental burnout…so wad guilt free taking care of self.

Planned a trip as well… on Wednesday but past 4-5 days have been extremal heavy, traumatizing n triggering on 2-3 fronts.
1. My parents and dadi have given me more trauma and made me feel extremely unheard, unseen and triggered big time all wounds of the same, that too also big time
2. bf going through a hard time financially n work wise, so being extremely stoic, insensitive, gaslighting and numb. It is creeping me out as that reflects the big time nature of my now dry-alcoholic father as well.
3. Many of myfriends desserting me - and me taking personally, knowing it’s about them

With my physical, spiritual and mental-emotional growth, i m getting to see these triggers and i m like ohhh-nooo. All my healed depression and anxiousness, is coming back as a flush again…and i m going to be moving out soon, so the change (coming from an adult child of alcoholic/dysfunctional family), is scary for me too!- though i know it’s good covertly.

PS. I DON’T WANT ANY ADVICE/GYAAN OR SOLUTIONS OR JUDGEMENTS. i know i need to seek therpay, love myself , spiritual guidance n eat well, take care, divert my energies on work… already doing that extensively, perhaps will chill n do that more…
if you can offer WARMTH, HOPE, STRENTGH, COURAGE AND INSPIRATION(my situations being chronic n be wanting to get out of it for the longest time, and tried too) - please do. need it, genuinely