possible trigger warning maybe? Hi, I work as a volunteer EMT on my local ambulance a few days a week in 12 hour shifts, three day shifts and one night shift. It’s not often when something SERIOUS serious occurs, but when it does, it really leaves you shaken. It’s like getting a punch to the chest every time you think about it. It’s hard when you’re fresh out of EMT training at the ripe age of 16 and being thrown into very stressful situations when someone’s life is in your hands. I know I signed up for it and I was fully expecting harsh things to happen, but it’s one thing to expect it and it’s a whole other thing to see it in real life. I can’t talk to my family or friends about it, cause they don’t know what it’s like to stare into someone’s eyes and see the light in them get dimmer until you either save them or they don’t make it to the hospital. For someone to look at you and trust you with their life and make sure they live through whatever they’re going through is such a heavy burden. I love being an EMT, and I want to go even farther into field medical work, but some things lay so heavy on your chest that it gets difficult to breathe.