PMS is real. Its painful,its a downright nightmare for some.Im sick of the amused smiles, the tsk tsks, the brushing under the carpet. I go through what i go through. Can i get 1 week of my life in comfort and acceptance?

Women Empowerment

my teacher is always being so unfair. we are currently studying online cuz of covid 19. WHENEVER i turn my camera on the teacher would be like: can you put your camera down? i can't see you ( even though I already showed my face) i will pin you here so the class can see. But when the pOpUlAr gIrLs place the camera shows only their foreheads then she was like: oh why aren't you showing your face? you might have some acnes right, it's ok just leave the camera like that. She's always so unfair and I'm tired of it.

School

Does big noses really look that bad? I have a big and long nose but many guys has a crush on me. But somewhere my insecurities arent letting me accept this. Ugh

3am Thoughts

I feel lost, I feel broken! I don't know what to do. Is it possible to love someone so hopelessly? When you knew you didn't have a future together? To be so crazy about someone, when you haven't even heard their voice or met them in over a year? There's just something about them. You keep searching for them in every guy you meet? All you are dying for is to listen to their voice, once last time. To hug them, one last time. To cry with them, one last time. Especially when you know they feel the exact same way? Is it possible to die of this emptiness and helplessness every single day? Is there a definite end to this?
I can't sleep at nights, still waiting for his call, hoping he's on the other end feeling the  same way..
He is everywhere. In the books I read, in the songs I listen to, in the places I go to but most importantly, he is still stuck here, inside me. I don't see light at the end of this tunnel!

Depression

A Blessing! 

In tough times, and blurry sides, 
There are loved ones who are missing, 
Somehow you get someone like a blessing, 
The one who soothes, listens me all day long, 
The one who made this life a melodious song, 
The one who always walks besides,
Wiping my tears even on heavy tides, 
Wish to endure these minutes forever,
Wish to be in it wherever, 
Such love and care is never wasted, 
Fortune enough to got it, 
She got the light in those cracks, 
What if we have our own climax, 
More love, less hate, found my soulmate,
Somehow you get someone like a blessing,
To make you forget your misfortunes.

Love

If someone needs to hear this today :

Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
-Marilyn Monroe

i feel like shit  because of my terrible anxiety and extreme reserve nature . I dont know why i keep embarassing myself everyday like literally everyday.i know we all are humans and I'll have to talk to people but idk why i feel so different like idk i'm just too embarassed of myself and have a really low self esteem. I'm too scared for my future...i can't think of any skill i posess like what am i gonna do few years later if I'll be like this only.

Social Anxiety

I couldn’t find the appropriate category for this// Social media tells us what we are supposed to look like which is basically a 24 inch waist with a zero fat percentage, a big ass but also a thigh gap, a little belly fat is fine but not too much, well toned arms but they shouldn’t be bulky, a woman who’s tall enough for the perfect kiss but don’t get me wrong. “short is great too”. social media tells us what the perfect relationship is supposed to look like which is basically, sex at least thrice a week, dinner reservations at expensive restaurants, free hoodies from your boyfriends, your man hyping you up because he likes the way you dress and your style. Instagram, Facebook, snapchat (or whatever other platform you use) has us wrapped around its fingers, we’re puppets on strings that are attached to nothing but the society’s standards. That is what we all think. If you (whoever is reading this) someday, somehow manage to look past the standards that the  society we’re living in holds for us, you might actually find beauty in everything. It’s okay if you want to disagree with me on this, I see where you’re coming from but I personally feel that the expectations that were supposed to fulfill aren’t as bad as we think they are. You know why? Because everything, every damn thing, that we go through  or think, is because of the decisions we make on our own. You might actually start caring less, or run out of fucks to give if you take this blindfold off.

Other

I get jealous of other girls. I want to dress like them.

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