Please communicate with me when I've done something that bothers you or you don't understand. Allow me to apologize and learn.

3am Thoughts

You can't live with your own failure .

Life

Cleaning your wardrobe with high beat music on high volume is super cool idea when you feel upset and when your mom has been asking you to do it since long😜

Self Love

i hate being so unphotogenic!! i’m actually really pretty, but whenever my friend pulls out her camera to take pics together i look SO bad!!!!! people also tell me this sometimes like they say i’m attractive but pictures dont “do me justice” i wish i was photogenic :( 

i don’t know if it’s my age, my inability to commit, or if i just haven’t found that person but i don’t see myself with anyone in the future and i don’t really see it as a bad thing. i like being alone, i like knowing that i don’t need anyone and that i don’t need to worry about being needed by someone else. i imagine my future with no kids, maybe a possible boyfriend but nothing serious. i don’t want that because i value my time alone and the thought that i’d have to share a bed with someone else or i have to wake up and talk to someone else doesn’t seem amusing to me, at least not forever. 

So happy I found a place to vent. I know this is a long read. Read and reply if you want. Ask for more details if you want. I love talking to new people. 

So recently I have started somewhat of a relationship with my bestfriend (of 6 years). We started off being intimate, which led to us gaining real feelings. Keep in mind, we have never looked at each other this way. We tried the intimate part and things just progressed. Right now I feel we both are on two different pages. I'm lets be serious and see where things go. She is on lets be serious and see where things go but also I'm going to still deal with my past relationships. Keep in mind, we tend to switch between friendship us and relationship us. She still tells me about her relationship problems and as her bestfriend I tell her to do what makes her happy although, deep down i feel like she should leave everybody else alone and be with me lol. We have a very honest relationship (which is scary because its rare to find this type of honesty) but she know I dont feel secure in own relationship, I feel like eventually she is going to end our relationship for a past one, and/or she's only using me for her benefit. She insures none of things are true and that she will never hurt me in anyway buttttttt I know her very very well and usually my predictions are right. I can admit I over think like a mothafuckaaaa so I do wind up hurting my own feelings but Im not sure on what to do in this situation. I don't want to build up any animosity against my bestfriend over relationship drama. 

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