Pis gya wo bheetri or bahari 
Do paaton ke beech 
Esi tragedy hai neech 

Grinded between
His inner and outer self
This is the tragedy.

-muktibodh 

Frustration

I'm back on anti-depressants. not for a big deal and I didn't take them in the first place for a big reason. I'm just stressed about everything that's actually simple and normal. I don't even know why I'm writing this here. well actually I kinda do. I guess I just wanted to tell someone, get attention for it and be pitied for it (really weird of me but I love it and that's the reason I'm mostly here). also I'm using here like a diary of anything could be considered bad so there's that too. I hope the medicine affects me soon,I'm stressing about school rn for a very minor thing so I hope I can be carefree again. :) 

3am Thoughts

Any girl want to become my friend

YOLO

Update: I have found some jobs and yes i am willing to take risk 

Happy

Please don't judge me guys
But I really want to vent this out I can't face this all anymore
We have had bad financial conditions since start...
Few years back my mom took loan from bank though the emi was high for us as per the income of my dad that Time ... Post COVID the financial condition went to worst we were surviving somehow me and Didi we quit our studies and started working odd jobs we are still working still the Emi's are pending the rent is pending all the jewellery is sold out my Di got married recently... First for her engagement they borrowed money from 
Frnds on interest uska bhi baki.... hai then for her marriage borrowed loan on my documents jitni meri salary nhiy usse jyada woh loan ka emi hai
I can't face this all at once
What I'm scared the most is
My parents they both are 62+, I'm 23
My dad and me we are the only bread earner of our house God forbid if something happens to them all those pending loans, that pending rent that interest borrowed money all is going to bump on my head how am I gonna face that this thought literally haunts me... I'm working as much as I can I quit my studies and started working what else is expected from me sometimes I think if I end this life all their problems will be solved 
I really can't take this anymore
I just can't 
I feel like ending everything all at once and Rest in peace literally the night haunts me all day I spend thinking things how to get out of this but everytime something comes up and I get stuck more in this 






































Reh  

Anxiety

Can someone tell me how to connect with other? Because telling it's telling me to spend more time😒

Other

I want to cry but I can't 
I want to say that what I feel but instead of saying I screamed on that person to whom I love the most .And then also he comes to me and asks 'what happened tell me the reason at least ' after that I finally cried a lot.
I think I'm going in a phase of anxiety or depression.
I don't know what to do?? I was hopeless .
Is anyone who can help me to get out from this??

help me out of this hell...

Respect and trust matters more in marriage than love. A loveless marriage is fruitful if there is a understanding. Not every successful relationship requires love. 

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